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maybe its love
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Friday, 28 May 2010 life seems to be so boring now that i am working! BORING O BORING! im worried soon i will stop updating..
I REALLY MISS SCHOOL DAYS. aside frm that, i can find THOSE were the days. I MISS SCHOOL. kidding. time to move onnnnnnnnn! anyhow, 没有希望就不会失望。
and just when i thot i could manage singlehood well. it dont work.
i hate Sunday, 23 May 2010 sorry for e lack of updates peepos! so we went on a shopping trip to look for new top and shoes. thanks to them (: ♥
so graduation on thursday was hell great! im gratefully happy! (:
the day was then wrapped up nicely at Ajisen with my lovely girls! (: enjoy the peektures! (: my favourite girls who re always there for me. (: classmates. (: ethan. (: johan. (: lk (: calvin (: mr swelyn lim! course in-charge. (: scand becca. (: then was friday night out with some graduates! (: however, i must say the music was great! heehee. 2) and its so not happening! Wednesday, 19 May 2010 BRACE FACE! (: (heh. my lips still looks a lil swollen! ): still recovering frm ulcers!) instant lips fillers! im getting egg-cited for tml's graduation ceremony! (: i cnt waittttt! Tuesday, 18 May 2010 poof! janice reporting from ite hq! (: haha after working for a week, i feel like a call answering machine now! "good morning/afternoon, ite. janice here. how may i help you?" lol. and bcos all we do is wait for phone calls to come in, so when theres no calls, we can actually surf the net or do watever we want! sounds great right!? but now, im so sick and tired of surfing the net! fb until dont want to fb alr. blogshop until dont want to blogshop alr. blog hop until dont want to blog hop alr. LOL. oh, and i came across this blogshop, they are having SALES! OMG! so many gorgeous peices! i would kill to buy! :x hahaha, kidding. but seriously, its quite cheap and nice! I CANNOT WAIT FOR MY PAYYYYYY! *scream at the top of my lungs* hmm, been answering pretty much the same old questions everytime, except for a few out of the blue qns which can be quite a headache. *pull hair* i must say, some callers are plain stupid. oops. i mean ignorant. some are WEIRD. some called to nag..or rather to complain abt ite. (and i feel like a counselor!) some are really nasty and fierce to us. ): boohoo. for example, yesterday, i answered two pretty nasty calls. ): not to mention, EARLY MORNING. like monday blues havent done enuff harm to me. oh wells. janice, understand this, not everyone in this world is kind and all-nice. the world out there is cruel and competitive. get this into your pea brain. anw, was feeling really down and emo mo mo.. so met x for a talk the other day. sigh, sometimes i feel so meaningless in life. i mean, at this stage. all i do is work for the sake of money.. live for the sake of earning money.. goal: earn money just to satisfy my wants. blahblahblah. picture credit to fuckyeahamazing seriously, i dont feel happy. AT ALL. ):):): anw, so i told x about my work attitude and all. i feel like im too nice. probably cos im soft spoken, it naturally gives ppl the impression that im a push-over, someone they can take advantage of or even, someone who cnt take charge. besides, i always ask things too nicely.. in addition, my tone and all? so it makes making things done harder usually not as efficient as someone who have gt a firm tone and voice. pretty upset to be born with such voice uh. ohoh! talking about this, got customers say my voice is sweet! heehee. okay. yah. thats the only good side. the bad side? like i have mentioned. or even worst, TEASED abt. ): i wish i wasnt born with a kidish voice. so x told me he rather i be the bad girl. i wish i could. i wish i have the heart. quote frm val's fb status: 别等不该等的人,别伤不该伤的心。 有时,爱也是一种伤害。 残忍的人,选择伤害别人。 善良的人,选择伤害自己。 哭,不代表我屈服。 退一步,不代表我认输。 放手,不代表我放弃。 anyhow, thats not e main thing im upset about. not convenient to share here. but just wish that i have better goals in life and probably.. get my smile back. Sunday, 16 May 2010 我感到心中的空虚, 可是我却说不出为何。 i really dread what im feeling again. loneliness is eating into me. 不是没人陪, 是不想有人陪。 可是自己一个却感到孤单寂寞。 真矛盾。 anw, i seems to have forgotten how to smile. probably.. even forgotten whats a smile like. i just feel like vanishing into thin air. put me into a room, with no hp, no computer, no technology. no connection with the outside world. just mediate. and HEAL. take me away Wednesday, 12 May 2010 seriously, TALK TO MY HAND! yes, good job. u want my attention? yes, u totally got it. but WRONG attention. im so freaking pissed off. i could feel tears gashing out anytime. heat rushing to my head. steam fuming outta my ears. i nearly wanted to flip the table and point the universal finger. but i was calm & civilized enuff not to do it. thats how pissed off i was. i doesnt say anything doesnt mean im fine with it. and dont expect me to forgive u just like snapping ur index finger with e thumb! dont push your luck too far my dear boy. emotional avalanche Monday, 10 May 2010 first of all, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY okay i know im late. heh, im feeling a tint of guilt here. realised it ve been some time since i got momsie something.. whatsmore she ve been trying to fulfill my wants and needs. i feel that i ve taken her for granted. although i always think shes so stingy with her money. i ve thot about it. we as children really owe our parents so so much. during our birthdays, we always request for this and that.. and if they dont get me for us, we get upset with them. but have u realised they nv really request anything from us for their birthdays? this really brings me a sense of guilt and i feel so ashamed of myself. ): and so i promise i will get her something when pay day comes! anw, this year's mothers day have been a really usual one. just dinner at granny's place. dint really celebrate at all. moreover i came really late due to the rain. bah! dont cha just dread the weather nowdays?! its so humid! it made nights so hard to sleep in. ): talking about MOTHERS, i came across the blog entry on yahoo on PARENTS on FACEBOOK! okay in case u dont know, MY QUITE HIP MOMMY HAVE GOT A FB ACCOUNT! awesome or wad?! so its almost like a nightmare come true. in fact she added my cousins. but surprisingly, she didnt add me! *phew* however, since shes my cousin's friend, she was able to view my account and know the existance of my fb frm them. so being the usual sensitive mother and being concern, she clicked on my profile in front of me that faithful night! GOSH. the first thing she does, "view photos" and tadah! million of questions shooted at me. i felt like im being questioned in the police station. "oh, who is this guy?" "why so many guys?" any pictures with just a guy & a girl: "oh, she and him tgt uh?" LOL! thank god shes nt my friend! imagine u have to be so careful when u re updating your status, the pictures that u put up, best part, maybe u lied to her and accidentally someones tag u a picture that reveals everything? or even comments! so much restrictions. so my stand is, dont ever add ur parents on fb! bad move. alrighty, the post is getting so wordy! time for peektures! (: headed to malaysia again with my beloved sec sch mates some time back! bus ride to msia! lunched at kim gary! smth like HK cafe! (: yins, jan, val. (: my lovely quek. it was pretty fun! (: and i wish spore stuff is as cheap as malaysia! their entertainment are uber cheap as compared to sg! yins told me just sg$3 to catch a movie! cathay somemore! so cheap right?! and we even went to sing k! pretty cheap too! s$10 only! and its kbox standard loh. the room seems bigger too! camwhoring with my loots: floral cut out top (: Friday, 7 May 2010 hello! im at work now and its my first post from work! :D and i ve just answered my first phone calllllll! i sound so jittery! oh boy! stay calm Janice Huay! on a sidenote, i feel so distant from TP school life now. gahh. guess thats the phrase of a graduate. anw, am anticipating! heading back to school tonight for JAM AND HOP! :D whos going?! hands up! okay, awesome! see u peeps thereeee! (: (okay, here comes my 2nd phone call!) |
LA BAMBINA JANICE HUAY ♥Im just an average girl next door ♥TP is my lovely second home ♥bluesuki2003@hotmail.com ♥Gemini ♥19 ♥sports, dance, music, sleeping ♥white&turquoise ♥family&friends ♥animals ♥im NICE & its so in my name! :D flash me a smile my friend and i will flash u mine! :) i wanne be the only hand you need to hold on to. & you know u're the one who keeps me smiling with those dimples. :) dancebabydance leave a note
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