u changed yours, its time to make changes to mine.
lets just let memories be memories.
算了。
i know this gonna hurt again. but i know i had to do this.
when we chose this path, someone had to go.. & i know you ll find another.
Monday, 23 August 2010
been thinking alot for the past few days. in fact, too much.
my mind needs a break now.
time to switch off.
but thanks to some people, they made my life a tad happier. THANK YOU SWEETIE PIES. (:
my lovely proggers, my all-time-best clique, best bud amron & my sweet awesome. ♥
progger chalet at NSRCC.
guitar hero on the first night. (: it was awesome fun! thanks to khai for bringing e whole set over to the chalet & im totally stuck on playing the drums! so cool! (:
it makes me wanne buy a set too! HAHA.. or can i have it for my birthday?!
& instead of bbq, we actually had pizza feast at the chalet!
all nice until the thrash talk. i knew it was coming, so i carried a heavy heart thru out.. just that i dint show it nor mention a word to anyone.. it felt so horrible trying to bottle everything up yourself. but i decided i need to thrash it out even thou i dint want to.
it ended with tears & anger.
thanks amron bud for coming all the way just to fetch me home & be there to cheer me up. if not i really have no idea wad would become of me.
suppers to cheer me up, htht to make me feel better & not forgetting your super crappy jokes which never fail to make me laugh. (: THANK YOU. i know u re having a hard time too with regards to your r/s, be strong too alrighty.
after so long, i thot i wouldnt be bothered by you anymore.
but apparently nope. u still drive my emotions crazy. why bother to hold me back when u re worried to be seen by others?
your actions betrayed you.
the next day attended KL's graduation ceremony! (: was a lil upset couldnt be in time to see him get his awards but still am glad we managed to see him take his grp photos, snap a few shots with him & witness his ceremony. congrats kuku! so proud of you! (:
then went to chalet after that!
after pizza ytd night, had maggie mee & macdonalds delivery the next! lol! then was mj! for the sake of fun, we actually played 5cents, 10cents! damn pathetic. HAHA. in e end i won 20cents!
then supper with amron again! (:
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& ytd we celebrated jing ren's birthday! (:
simple dinner at bugis. den to PLAY NATION (just opposite POMO)
it was my first time there! its like minds cafe, but they have gt wii & xbox! damn fun luhs! (:
booked a room & we played guitar hero again, & this rabbit game which drives all of us crazy! got us screaming like mad & wii is such a gd exercise! can shed off fats frm your arms! (:
after play nation, we supposed to go drinking, but plan changed to mj at Han's place.
so we bought supper & rot at his place! surprised JR with super cute bikini cupcakes & card!
hope he had a blast! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JR!
(pics with becca! to be uploaded again! (: )
Tuesday, 17 August 2010
WHY DID YOU TALK TO ME?!
its fucking my head.
Monday, 16 August 2010
there goes my one week of off!
gonna start work again tomorrow! hope that work is not going to be hectic tml & no nasty callers please!
been doing loads of catching up with friends & e week was definitely well spent! ♥
first was the awesome long weekend due to national day! whee! (:
went clubbing, hit the gym for some great workout then mj-ing & supper with awesome-est. suntanning at cy’s place + catch up with my love twinny & cy. (: they never fail to give me their support whenever i needed it & always there to give me advices. then managed to catch breathtaking fireworks at grannys place. the view was nothing but gorgeous! so great we made it in time! (:
not forgetting my mary chia babes! jenna & charmaine! (: miss these girls to bits. & im gonna miss j when she goes over to UK! im so envious of her luhs. she ve got everything nicely planned out. & babe, if u re seeing this, im really happy for you & i hope u ll start anew there and meet someone better! (: u knw wad i mean.
and the highlight of the week was, i tried ROCK CLIMBING! always wanted to try it luhs! was excited and all..
woot! it was a great try out experience. but the after effect was painful! i got very bad muscle aches on my arms the next day when i woke up.
i couldnt do anything! i felt like a handicap seriously. i couldnt even brush my teeth, wash my face or even simple things like, opening the door? not even struggling that is.
ouch.
but it was worth it! it was FUN! tried left to right, den up the perpendicular wall. i took like 3 tries to reach the top!
first i was too scared to continue as it was freaking high and i had to JUMP down! theres no strings or anything to hole u. just mattress at the bottom.
it look so easy to just let go & jump down. but its so hard! i kept holding on & took like ages to jump dwn while amron was like persuading me to let go & i ll be fine. HAHA! and worse, i screamed when i did. heh! but after falling a few times i got immune to it. (: hees.
i find rock climbing really challenging cos u need to plan ur steps, hold up ur whole body using mostly ur arms (cos my legs doesnt ache at all) & really loads of endurance! & one thing i ve learnt, just keep climbing & moving ahead, not to look back. (:
gonna rock climb again! lets go amron & khai!
had photoshoot on thurs too! met cuzzie for some htht & dessert. (:
my fav ah chew dessert!
& e new model joined us that session, heidi. and she was ethan’s friend. ha. such a small world.
hmm, idk. was a lil awkward i think. alot was going on thru my mind, & no doubt there was a lil pressure. :x
i went to check out hows sarah doing & it seem like sales was great! (: walked around & spotted so many things i like, but ohwells, pay havent come in! but i still bought a f21 brand new top! teehee. :p & i bumped into gf natalie! was so shocked to see her & she actually have a booth! (: great to see her! but the place was damn hot luhs! like a furnace! ):
yup! and thats how i spent my week! (: wish i had more pictures to share with u guys. toodles.
sometimes i wish some ppl will just leave me alone & leave nasty comments to themselves. this is my blog & im just expressing how i feel. is it even wrong? i dont need comments on how i should lead my life or whatsnot. im sure everyone have their own troubles, their own feelings, their own choices.
unless u re that wise that u re leading a super great perfect life, dont judge me or correct me. you dont even know me, or even close to me. how could u just judge & comment? its just unfair.
just dont rub into ppl’s wound & judge ppl without getting facts right. and reflect on urself before doing so.
and even how nice my week appears to be. u never know the nights i spent crying & wondering deep.. it ve been a hard week for me. really.
im only human. and im only a typical girl. why why why!?
u hurt me so deep. and yet u ve no idea.
Friday, 6 August 2010
there was a cakie affair going on in the office yesterday!
celebrated Clara's & Joseph's Birthday!
the cake was awesome! love the strawberry mousse part! (: yumyum.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA (in advance!)
and JOSEPH! (:
just wanne say thank you for introducing me this great job, and for taking a gd care of me too! HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again! stay young with your super baby face (you ll nv be able to guess him age cos he DONT look like his age!) hahaha.. faster find a pretty gf & excel in ur degree! ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING U DO! most impt, BE HAPPY! (:
the crazy guys, stanley & zhi sheng. always making fun of me! but without them work would be so boring! (:
lovely ida. always so helpful & her voice is so sweet, just like her person. (:
the annoying guys! (:
loadsa fun!
it kinda make work less boring yesterday & time certainly passed by faster than i thot! (: cheerios!
Wednesday, 4 August 2010
lousiest day ever
its just the beginning of Aug.. & im already drowning.
firstly, my nose is acting like a bitch. it just keep running non stop & i had to blow my freaking nose like every 1 min. ):
then it got so bad i actually had blood in my mucus & it totally freaked me out. (cos i never had it before.)
then came my darkest fear..
guess i should have saw it coming.. but i cannot cope with all that is happening. oh god.
yes, i agree, im the one who chose this path & i should just suck it up. im the one who gave us up..& therefore i shouldnt even look back right. whats the point of us holding on when i dont even want to give us a chance anymore right?
i contradict, i know. im confused, i know. i suck, i know.
u told me u need your life back, u need to move on. i thot it was only right you do that.
cos i know at the end of the day, i cannot give u wad u want from me.. and i cannot be so selfish & keep u by my side when i cannot give u wad you want.
im sorry.
it really pains me to see wads going on.. and all that changes.. no matter wad, it still affects me & i know wads going on in my life pains u too..
i know u deserve someone better. you do. and i ve no doubt there are tons of girls who wanne be love by you.. cos u re just such a great guy.. its my loss.
the more i realised im good at pretending.. and deep inside, im really
weak.
Tuesday, 3 August 2010
its start of a whole new month, AUGUST!
its gonna be so empty with just freaking NINE days of work man. but just huiqi just intro-ed me a pt job, 4hrs $80! woot! (:
hopefully can start work soon & with it i can earn enuff to support my extensive impulsive shopping habits!
today was literally rotting at home and feeling all sucky.. think im sick AGAIN! ): this time? running nose, blocked nose & itchy bitchy throat creating havoc. humphs.
please oh please, be good & get well soon body.
oh & i went to send xq off to Pulua Tekong early morning today since i ve nth on! first ever trip there! was pretty excited at first to see hows its like & with the hope of bumping into someone there.. (but to no avail, since everyone looks the same! hahaha!)
we took a shuttle bus to the SAF ferry terminal, waited for some time before boarding the penguin ferry to TEKONG!
hmm, went on a tour around.. actually their bunks are quite clean & spacious. unlike wad i thot it would be like actually.
then was some explanatory talks on the items they bring on their fieldtrip.. blah blah blah & whatsnot.
finally was the auditorium to reunite with the guys & see them take the oath. (: i think it was quite funny when everyone start saying their own I/C no & name! hahaha.. so messy luhs. and can u imagine if ur name is freaking long? u have to complete it when everyones already saying the second line?
hahaha..
afterwhich was lunch, but i had to skipped it & rushed to the ferry terminal as i have a dental appointment!
hmm, somehow i felt really bored during the trip. :x gonna be my first & last time i think, unless its sending someone special.
& the usual kuku me changed my bracey colour to RED & WHITE! national day! HAHAHA..
i think damn kuku, but c’mon, once a year for my COUNTRY! SINGAPORE. hahaha..
(i cnt help but recall this time of the year, just the year before.. watching the ndp parade tgt.. getting excited and all..i really miss it all.. but yes i know things changed. but memories stay. always.)
& i hit the club again on Saturday! oopsie daisy. my first clubbing with the SP peeps! (got to know them thru yins & the SP model show! & they re great fun!)
yins wanne go, so as promised, she goes, i go.
so met pretty cuzzie for steamboat in the afternoon,
then was SHOPPING at bugis! supposed to acc her get new bag, but as usual, i just couldnt resist temptations.. i bought 2 floral dresses! (really pretty & sweet! HAHA!) & a new bikini! (:
so happy with my buys. but when i see the balance in my account, its time to do some soul searching!
went home, had a good rest & i was ready to bring the club down! HAHA, okay, kidding!
met jonny, cynthia & her 2 other friends at fep. we missed the freaking last bus & ended up cabbing to phuture/zouk!
then when i was in cab, it suddenly struck me that i freaking had to pay COVER CHARGE & CAB FARE home later when i could have head to st james and club for free! ):
sigh. oh wells. already promised yins & amron.
bumped into some tp peeps! (:
so was just roaming around till yins come after work where the real party starts! :D can u imagine we knew each other for NINE years & its our FIRST time clubbing tgt!? like FINALLY!
i swear yins was damn freaking cute when shes high! she keep jumping ard nonstop, laughing nonstop & keep chanting, ”im dead im dead, im so high!” (in chinese) HAHAHAHA! (:
then we decided to head to zouk for a lil while. thats when madness & nightmares begun.
went up to podium with one of the babes. ended up being targeted one after another! gosh. really thank you amron for playing the hero for the night pulling me & protecting me frm these hungry predators!
first were these 2 butches & apparently one of them PINCHED my butt! when i turned ard puzzled, they were pointing fingers at each other & intro-ed themselves asking if they can dance with me. OMG. i just reject politely & went off. phew.
then we went to another podium, this guy in his late 20s, started targeting me. dance closer & closer & finally said, "i think we met somewhere before..” LOL! (wad a bad pickup line was wad drifting thru my mind) i just said, “oh no, i dont think so.” *ignore* but he still continue dancing with me & itchy hands! then amron to the rescue! (:
and soon after that, another one came. –.- it happened so rapid i dont even have time to react! this ang moh guy ard our age just grab my hand from nowhere, pulled me dwn frm e podium & offered me to dance with him!
omg! lucky for amron, who just pulled me away. which left e dude really puzzled.
so he came up and wanne dance with me again, and amron stopped him & asked him to find another girl instead. so he was really unhappy & asked amron,why? and amron just said, you dont need to know why. Just enjoy your own night with another girl.
LOL! THANKS AMRON! I KNOW I OWE U BIG TIME! (:
then we gt e news yins was damn wasted. so we stopped partying, rushed out & sent her home!
clubs are such dangerous place to be in. serious. it kinda scares me at times. :/
but e fun we had with ppl we know are worth it! :D
LA BAMBINA
JANICE HUAY
♥Im just an average girl next door
♥TP is my lovely second home
♥bluesuki2003@hotmail.com
♥Gemini
♥19
♥sports, dance, music, sleeping
♥white&turquoise
♥family&friends
♥animals
♥im NICE & its so in my name! :D
flash me a smile my friend and i will flash u mine! :)
i wanne be the only hand you need to hold on to.
& you know u're the one who keeps me smiling with those dimples. :)
WHY DID YOU TALK TO ME?!
