IMPOSSIBLITY.

i should have know better where i stand.

just came back from my run. :) i always love this after-effect. i will feel fit and healthy after each run. HOHOHO. :D

dont u think its HOT!?

i wante buy new naval ring!!! and go sun tanning like soon!? i have been pushing back all the sun tanning dates due to projs, projs and still PROJS! damn. :/

HOLIDAYS are coming! it will be in my FIRST to-do list! WOOWEE.

but before holidays, im like suffering now. :( club and resort paper today was kinda crappy. cos i dint study e parts that came out. so i can only write based on what i can rmb from tutorials. pathetic. and now im mugging for tml's marketing paper. LIKE SO SHITTY ONLY! HAHAS.

talking abt this, i had been quoting cj's favourite phrase. "like (smth) only" HAHAS! we kept going on talking like this for damn long and finally we stopped cos its freaking tiring trying to fit words into it and super irritating when its used too much. LOL. brother jeremy was rather irritated by me also. WAHAHAS. and they say i learn very fast! i keep quoting whatever they said and shoot them back. HOHOHO. -inserts big smug-

okay back to new year. :) like expected. it was rather boringggg thou.

everythings like usual. duh!

day one:

went to granny's place. lunch and stuff. then left ard late noon to other relative's house. collected more ang baos before setting at my aunt's house for chicken rice. went to lao da's house for gambling session at night. :) dint manage to win any money until the end. hees. everything was great until mommy kept calling me and rushes me to get home. :(

my family and my relative's family

my cousin and i.
shes getting married this year and im gonna be her BRIDES MAID! im so excited! :D

with mommy!

loves. :)

cousin meng. hes getting married too! :D

xiao hui xin.:) so cute luhs. shes frowning.

huixin de pa pa. my cousin.

my lil cousins.

at laoda's house. apple, cheryl, and 2 janices (ahhuay, ahphua)

day two:

basically visiting mom and dad's friends. then finally my grandma's place! was feeling rather tired. so slept at her place. :x this year seems a lil boring and i dont really have the new year mood. sigh. maybe cos i knew i have a paper the next day and it kinda spoils everything. nice one. nvm. COUSINS, WE WILL HAVE A GOOD TIME THIS SUNDAY AT MY HOUSE ALRIGHTTE! :D

dad's colleague's dog! :)

with that, i shall go back to BOOKS. DUH. LIKE BORING ONLY. HAHAS.

HAPPY MOO YEAR! :D

yessah! the festive is finally HERE! woot.

but i think this gonna be one of the few worst CNY i think. :/ because:

1. I HAVE GOT MY PERIOD ON THE EVE. :( which leads to bad cramps. and i dint countdown to it at all. i was lying on e bed and i just fell aslp like dat. doh!

2. No special celebration ._. like boring only. rot at home, reunion dinner at granny's hse den "flower shopping" at thomson.

3. GOT STOOPID DUMB DUMB peer survey due 26, and dats e reason why i woke up so early to try to complete, but IT WAS CLOSED! i thot its 26th's midnight. but it was closed on e first hour of 26! okay if u get wad i mean. AND worst is hazel darling went to genting and asked me to help me. NOW WAD? :( shit. sorry babe!

4. i have FUCKING 2 papers after CNY! chu san and chu si. LIKE WTH! grrrr. okay. see me going from house to house with lecture notes people.

5. RECESSION NOW YO! predict red packet money will be reduced to like HALF? sigh. just pray u dont get chocolate coins in red packet.

6. I HAVENT PAINT MY NAILS! ah crap. the result of no money and time to go for manicure. :(

7. No goodies at home ehhhh! OHMAN! :( i want crispy love letters! i want BAKWAK! i want those KUEH something one! i want PINEAPPLE TARTS! ahhhh..

so dont u think its rather BAD? ahhhh.. :( okay, shall hope tat things are great during visitings!

anyway, had a lil gathering with my lovelies yesterday! :D consist of me, becca, grace and serena.
SERENA TWIN is BACK from her OSIP in china!

met her at chong pang to get my maxi dress altered. HAHAS. okay janice got short legs, no choice. i'll still step on the dress even with a super high heels okay! HAHAS. shit. so i got to alter the length. :) she did it well i think. but it cost me another 6bucks. BAHH.

then went on to yishun to meet rebecca. OMG! i was like SHIT. we wore TUBE DRESS and SAME COLOUR COMBI somemore can! *faint* okay. maybe its telepathy. HAHAS. but its quite weird luh. and ppl might think that we did it on purpose. LOL.

head down to bugis. had a quick bite before SHOPPING! grace phuaphua came. :)

SHOPPING is always AWESOMEEE with them. :D bought a denim vest i have eyed on e other day. then managed to buy a floral dress to match with it. done.

OH, and did i mention mommy only gave me $50 for CNY SHOPPING?! its damn LITTLE luhh. and of cos i bargained for MOREEE! and.. i got $100. still its not enough loh. :x okay. yes recession i know. :/

serena babe left early for reunion dinner leaving the 3 of us. continued shopping till 8 plus before going ajisen for DINNER. :D saw andy and simpson by coincidence. asked andy to join us for dinner since hes leaving for Vietnam tml. and its also his BIRTHDAY tml!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY! :D

after dinner was chilling out session at starbucks. :D we sang a very impromptu birthday song for andy before i left hurriedly to somewhere else for a drink with my friends. :)

supposed to blog how bad my friday was. it felt like friday the 13th. ._.
but i guess. since its over. ITS OVER.
but im just glad at least i found back my WALLET! woot.

forbidden ♥

crying and brooding over it couldnt get you anywhere janice.

dont be a cry baby. get down to it and get done with it.

after tml, its 3/4 done.

i guess thats my limit. i dint have a good night sleep for 3 weeks.
3 f-ing weeks! my eye bags are f-ing huge. im f-ing tired.. very very tired.

yawn.

finished compilation at 4 plus in the morning. its going to be 6! GOOD JOB.

i gonna sleep like a pig i swear. 

thank god class is at 4pm! GOODMORNING PEEPS. im heading off to bed now.

oh, and i was quite surprised my daily hits was 94! LOL.
i think its e first time i get so many viewers in a day man.
i seriously wonder why and who.

i know you re still there for me. from the bottom of my heart: thank you.

she is so tired.
she spent e her saturday in school till 8.30pm doing project.
and she gonna spend another day doing project again. tomorrow.

and there goes her weekend.

she needs a break.
and she cnt wait.

she wants to go shopping for new year clothes.
she wants to spend a relaxing day at the beach under the sun.
she wants to spend more time with her friends.
and she wants to be happy.

oh. and she misses her side swept fringey. :( grow hair grow.

my dancing queen. :) thanks for e post babe.

and she knows shes blessed with GREAT friends. really GREAT AWESOMEEE FRIENDS. :)
winner love, scandals xiuzhen, rebecca and grace, glenn and andrew. thanks guys.
and shes glad to hear that there are ppl who are willing to go balloons freeing with her! :D YAY. shes for real!
and somehow she managed to clear up one misunderstanding. :) yes, shes just too sensitive.

have you ever feel like you have everything but feel real empty at the same time?

maybe i should have just gone home..

words i dint want to hear just keep buzzing ard my ears.
sometimes people just say wad they want w/o a second thot and it ends up hurting so much.
words so BLUNT it hurts so BAD.

maybe i just read too much into things. :( sensitivity is killing me.

im so confused. i dont know wad to say, wad to blog abt anymore.
it no longer feels like me.

i wish by my troubles will fly away like how balloons will.
i feel like buying tons of balloons and write all my troubles on it and let it go..
will you go free balloons with me?

i wish you well.

please dont be so nice to me.

i know how devastated you are and no matter wad i say will not make it right again. no matter wad i do will not make you feel any better.

BUT i doesnt feel any better too!

everything is you.
when i sleep, i slept with u in my mind.
when i woke up, i saw our picture above my bed frame
when i dress up, i saw the bracelet you bought for me
when i open my wardrobe, i saw the dress you bought for me
when im out, it reminds me of the things we do there.

this sucks.

this is never easy. but i ve think it through very carefully. i want it.

drowning myself with tears and beers.

in my dreams i heard familiar lil whispers and suddenly "bangs" and "booms".

got woken up by mom and dad at such wee hour. they came into my room to discard the black cabinet and to move my wardrobe to their room in order to make way for the new wardrobe coming in tml.

anyway, now my room feels so EMPTY out of a sudden and im not use to it.

i havent seen my new wardrobe yet! cos obviously they chose and bought it w/o consulting me. so im kinda anticipating. LOL. i hope it looks good and match my "style" for my room revamp! i still havent start my plan! but i roughly know wad colour i wante paint my walls and wad are some of e decos i want in e room. :) I WANT ROOM REVAMP LIKE SOON! i wish mom and dad will be kind enuff to sponsor me ehh. :p

Open house day TWO:

had a switch in roles. was switched to tour guides today. the same old feeling. maybe an additional tiredness. :/
but still i like open house cos i get to bang into many people in a day and i like seeing familar faces smiling back at me! :D

and the best part i have 3 great people (cj, peter and lj) by my side to entertain me esp cj. yoyo. my past 2 days bguide buddy+mass dance partner+gossip girls session. HAHAS. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE! nd i think i really gave u a surprise present uh. HAHAS. so smart of me. :p u dint even suspect a thing! teehee.

nd i was blog hopping, i found Damien's blog and he got e freaking same BIRTHDATE as me! waywee. i finally found someone i know who share e same birthdate as me. like woot. :D

before i forget, rinku outing at minds cafe was great. :) love the "end-less" UNO game at lounge, McDonalds dinner and of cos minds cafe!

thanks guys for irritating me with the song "JENNY" on the way to safra and had it customised to "JANICE" just for me uh. HAHAS. even thou it was super irritating i had to run away, hug lamp post, block my ears with my hands, and scream "YOU'RE KILLING ME", but it was GREAT FUN i swear. LOL.

nd i have super nice morganie on the bus ride home with me. :) sweets.

alright. i need my beauty sleep people. lets JAM and HOP tml. nights.

psst, where are u my lil hot pink mp3? i ve been searching for u high and low but you re nowhere to be found! days without you sucks loads. :( how could u leave me alone on long bus rides! come back to me lady in pink.

Where my party, p-party party, p-party people at?

TP Open house is here again! :D

Day ONE:

supposed to be in RARA team, but transfer to lecture hall bguides with li juan, peter and cj. :) seriously, very boring cos our duties are just mainly standing outside the LT and when the show is starting, pull people in. when it started, restrain people from getting in. LOL.

missed the first mass dance and was a lil upset. then we went for e one at 3.45! yay! :D cj got pea brain cos he forget e steps! WAHAHAS.

lijuan piggy-bagged me, swing and bounce me around like crazy. and we both ended up breathless. LOL. i swear my arms are still aching luhhs! BUT I STILL HEARTS PIGGYBAGS! :D

then escort Wan back to entrance. poor Wan was super sick nd pale. hope u are feeling better now ya. :)

just when i thot everything ends, group member called me up and said we had to make some amendments to the project. damn. stayed back to edit and stuff before heading off at 8pm. sucks.

and it happened again.. i thot i could have a goodnight rest finally after doing my project till 4am last night.. another member called and asked me to help hazel edit her report cos hes busy with e project as well. bahhh. :/ edited and went on to do my one page summary for tml's tut. HOW GREAT. :(

life like this. :/

shucks. my left gum hurts so badly. and it irritates me! :( my tongue cnt stop brushing over and it hurts everytime. seems like an ulcer on my gum.

and project discussion at late hour sucks big time as well. i dunno know. i prefer smaller group as there are lesser conflicts and agreements are met much easier luhhs. sigh. sometimes i just dread GROUP PROJECT. i just wish the people were as efficient.

and yes! i cut my hair ytd! okay, i mean fringe! yupp, BANGS again. but no more Egyptian queen this time. HAHAS.

went to work after dat and i think i shocked many people. they say i look different! bahh. and cuter, more like small kid. -.- kuku please.

here are the kuku peektures:

i still feel weird with my new fringe man. and i seriously hate WIND now. cos it always mess up my FRINGE! and i have to whip out my comb to tidy it.
so my new MUST-HAVE in my bag is my COMB. LOL.

woot. no class tml either. but got project meeting. darn. we gonna chiong all the way till friday. :( sucks sucks sucks. but im looking forward to tml's RINKU's OUTING at mindscafe! :D

HAPPY 2009 SWEETS! :D

i noe this post comes a lil too late cos its alr the 4th day of 2009!
but it supposed to be up on e first day of 2009 luhhs.

first of all, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
SHAWN TAN PUSSY & GRACE CHAN LI LIAN!

i miss both of u loads! i know each of us are busy with our own lives, but nonetheless i hope we will be able to meet up occasionally! :) hope u guys have a blissful birthday and may all your wishes come true. :D and shawn pussy, your wish of me giving u $1000 isnt coming true! :p continue waiting uh. HAHAS.

heh. i have not sum up my 2008 nor make any new year resolution!!! :(
so many undone stuff to be done. so many unsaid words to be said.
one word: unprepared
i aint prepared for a new year. i dont even feel like its a NEW year on the first day of NEW year. sigh. wads wrong this year? :/
i hope its just me and wishes that things will be GREAT and SMOOTH for this year!

so how did i spend my NEW YEAR EVE and NEW YEAR?

met tard for lunch and rushed for movie, IP man. we actually forgot abt e timing and had to gobble up the food when we realised we only have like 10mins to finish everything! HAHAS, yes not e first time. same place some more.

woot.IP man is really nice. a great show. :) and im charmed by the male lead. :x HAHAS. i really like this scene when his son cycled out in btw the fight going on and transfer his mum's words to his dad. awww. so cuttteee luhhs..

after e show i went off the harbourfront to meet the amara peeps who are working! met andy, simson and jerry first. jerry bought 10 cups of cup noodles! LOL. den came chee seng, apple and cheryl. when we were there everything were set up nicely alr. so not much to be done.

the party supposed to start at 9pm. but things only started to warm up at ard 10 plus 11. cheryl and i were the waitress for that night. we feel like the "mai jiu mei" LOL.

oh and did i mention we can work in our home clothes?! yea! damn cool. first time working in my own clothes luhh! wahahas. wore e black sequin dress tard bought for me on xmas.

anyway, back to work. order taking procedure was a lil messy & confusing at first. but things were sorted out soon after. then came this big group of Indians national. Cheryl got her first big ang pao dat night serving them! time passes by really fast dat night and soon it was 12 midnight! the countdown part is a lil cui but things are great with everyone saying "HAPPY NEW YEAR" to each other despite if we know each other or not! :D

everyones so happy! shaking hands, hugging each other, having fun!

all so happy when i shed my FIRST tear on 2009..
bahh. was playing the party pack thingy which will roll out when u blow into it. i went to disturb Alan den he kept moving back den i keep moving forward.. and before we know it, he move forward and we COLLIDED. his head knocked onto my nose bridge! OUCH. super pain. i bet its brain concussion lohh! e front of my brain hurts terribly, my eyes and nose as well! i couldnt even stand.

i was so worried i broke my nose! and silly thots came to my mind like wad im gonna do if im disfigured like dat? blah blah blah. ohman.
then Jerry helped me put ice on my nose since he learnt first aid before. HAHAS. thank you!

then we had cup noodles! my last meal of 2008- CUP NOODLES. my first meal of 2009- CUP NOODLES! loll. nice one. diff favour nia.

not much to be done after dat. then left our own amara people. one of the staff asked me to dance with him but i wont dare. so i pulled apple and cheryl along. and to much disguise, i got sabo. jerry dared me to dance ALONE under the spot light for one WHOLE song. and if i did he will drink one whole jug of beer. WAHAHAS. i did it and he drank it. :D

i swear the whole 2 to 3 mins or so was bloodyhell longg.. and super pai sehh luhhs. ohman. and darn they recorded it down! good game.

the fun ended at 3am and we started packing up. all the way till 4am. and by the time the cab is here its alr 5am! there goes our NIGHT! wante to head down to some pub to chill, but pubs alr closing by the time we reach there. :( bahhh. so went to find bf at boat quay there. just nice when im there the pub closed! then we just walked to raffles mrt, wait for e first train home.. am so TIRED!

reached home at 7am.

then on new year day just had dinner cum supper at chong pang with bf. THE END. HAHAS.

hmm, wad to say. a lil disappointed in this year new year's celebration bahh. feel like i kana cheated to work. :x HAHAS. no luhh. but just feel that theres something missing! heh. anyway, theres another to come! CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D

but damn the school! i have a paper on the 3rd day of CNY! tell me who is going to study during chinese new year?! imagine going to relatives or friends house with BOOKS instead of ORANGES? ohgosh. please change date can! TSK.

use your brains. if not try using your butt.

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loved-bf.
♥ DUA LOVE

loved-cuzzie.
♥ shuting
♥ serene biao jie

loved-canberrians.
♥ MEIYIN
♥ GRACE laopo
♥ jialong bro
♥ Suling dear
♥ jolyn nu er
♥ syafiq
♥ dilyse

loved-TP

♥ natalie
♥ cheryl
♥ janice phua
♥ fiona
♥ terry
♥ vanessa
♥ rayan
♥ maggie
♥ bing cheng

loved zilra.
♥ scandal graciie
♥ scandal rebecca
♥ scandal zhen
♥ twin serena
♥ fung yung
♥ yuen yuen
♥ zilra
♥ weng hao
♥ luffy
♥ johan
♥ sylvia
♥ kimberly
♥ chang yong
♥ amanda

loved classmates.
♥ my utmost love winner
♥ jialing
♥ eva
♥ audrey
♥ dianna
♥ zhining
♥ shuan
♥ lulu
♥ jap cds sean

loved VENOS.
♥ venos
♥ dancing queen apple
♥ fion
♥ jolene
♥ rayna
♥ jel
♥ pam x2 dora the explorer
♥ sinyan
♥ geraldine
♥ maybelle

freshies.
♥ sinhui jellyfish
♥ crazy but fun branda
♥ fruit basket cherry
♥ pretty brandon
♥ sweetie lya
♥ pretty melissa
♥ sky
♥ gareth
♥ larry the golden hair dude

loved RINKU.
♥ RINKU
♥ brendon
♥ damian
♥ dolyce
♥ glenn
♥ jeremy
♥ morgan

loved rinku freshies.
♥ caiyan
♥ ivan
♥ junior
♥ janice
♥ vanessa

loved trackmates.
♥ tp track official blog
♥ fangee
♥ adriel
♥ alison
♥ yi ning
♥ radhiyah

others that i also love.
♥ belinda
♥ michelle
♥ yewleong
♥ BSC
♥ wensheng
♥ pearlyn

boredom drives me to:
♥ xiaxue
♥ 98.7fm
♥ imeem
♥ serene biao jie's work
♥ liebemarlene vintage
♥ online shopping!



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