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Tuesday, 31 July 2007 sigh. suddenly, i jus feel that i have lost alot of things in my life. in specific, frens. i dunnoe why..jus feel kinda sad. and somehow i wiish things were like before. seriously, i miss those days. :( down is e word. i reallie miss some people.. some were attached, jus like me..doesnt have time to meet up anymore. some were busy with school. and worse still..we're in diff schs, which make it even harder to meet. if singapore is so small, but why is it so hard to meet someone u wante to see so much? sometimes i even feel dat im being forgotten. we dun even msg or chat on msn anymore.. i dun like it. WHERE ARE U PEOPLE?! COME BACK TO MY LIFE PLS! :( blank-ness in my life. EMPTY. i wanted so much to complain. so much to grumble. but who would wante listen? deardear is in camp..nt much time fer me to complain either. sometimes, i dun feel like complaining to anyone..i was afraid ppl would think dat im a hypocrite. BUT i cnt bear it inside everytime ryte?! i think im becoming more n more less vocal. i dun reallie wante tok in my family. no one would listen. frens? i dint wante trouble them or affect them..so i rather nt say anything. im weird. i always ask my frens who were upset to speak out whenever they are upset. but..i cnt do it fer myself. besides, im reallie sensitive. ( i did mentioned tis to grace, johan and deardear) i feel so weird. im starting to be scare of ppl. i feel like ppl always look at me weirdly or staring at me.. in sch, busstop, everywhere! and i noe those stares werent good ones. they seems to be critising.. did i dressed v.weirdly? NO. my dressing was common. den why is it so? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ anyway. thanks grace fer accompanying me todae. went to metro. theres closing dwn sales. hees. bought bra! LOL. damn cheap! 10 bucks onlie! calling all AUNTIES! pls come dwn to tamp metro! got closing dwn sales! =x hahas..saw two lil kids at e undergarment area. if im nt wrg they are bro and sis. they were messing ard and playing wif the undergarments! e lil bro damn funnie! he sae smth like, " kan na ke NEH NEH POK." LOL. me n grace heard it and we were like brusting into laughter. cute and innocent luhs. hahas..he even wore a sports bra over his head! =.= hahas. bought bento home. :) my dinner. tml got CSA excel test. wiish me luck. gt to go n practice. ZOOM~! hate life like tis. happened to be listening to tis song. :) sad song thou. Monday, 30 July 2007 1and 2.MY name tag! 3. grace and i with our TAGs. 4. me at billy bombers. LOVE THE CHAIR! xD 5. grace and i b4 camp. 6. johan eating breakfast.UNGLAM.wahahas. 7. becca and i after lunch. she looks grumphy. :( 8. johan kissing elaine. cnt catch them kissing.it happened too fast. 9. my fav: clam chowder! :D 10. my bro's : chicken with ribs. 11. my dad's half eaten ribs. 12. my seafood platter! hees. 13.lastly, choco chips ice cream              IM BACK FROM CAMP! :D dint have a gd nite slp fer DAYS! finally, i had a 3hrs nap jus now! hees. n nw, im energetic to blog! :) skipped lects on fridae. met up wif groupmates to do econs project. but in e end theres onlie winner and me.=.= woots! i bought lappie to sch fer e 1st time. thanks luffy and grace fer helping me wif e internet connection in sch.:) did research and stuff till 5pm and dad was there to fetch me. having family dinner at...BILLY BOMBER! :DDD i was tempted by e mixed grill! but no one wanne share wif me..so was kinda 'forced' into taking seafood platter. :( humphs. i took some pics. dun drool okies. :x however, i had to chiong project after such a great dinner. sigh. and i havent pack my bag! >.< color="#33ff33">my dad was awoken by me and he said,: "wa, so early wake up fer wad?" LOL. den i told him," i havent slp yet!" dad sent me to sch. :D BUT on e way, i found out i 4gt to bring my contact lens case and 'wallet'! thank god kleon's coming to sch ltr, hes bringing contact lens case fer me. :) omg. i felt like a SMALL GAL! i was in sports attire, covered shoes and my sec sch BACKPACK! i dint carry backpack since sec sch life ends! -.- anyway, met grace, becca and johan at busstop. wee.. johan gave me his harshbrown! :D johan,grace,rebecca and elaine all in e same group, Lyion. and IM NOT IN THEIR GROUP! *emo* im in Tiggo. the group names are so CUTE. disneyland characters. theres also Mika, Tarzilon and Groofey. when we went into e lect hall fer gathering, they were watching HIGH SCH MUSCIAL! i dint manage to catch e whole movie. so im gonna borrow it frm someone. ANYONE can lend me tis VCD? then, it was ice breaking games. *hate it* den it was e 5 stations games. (our grp onli went to 4) OMG. i have to mention tis very game! theres tis map, with MILO mixed wif NOODLES, BISCUITS and BAKED BEANS! wth! it so YUCKY! GROSS! e game commanders, will sae like 25 butts in there, or 40 hands in there, 10 backs in there.OMG! all of us kana e butt and hands. :( the milo smell was so srtong! damnit. dun dare to drink milo le. :x next was flag making. half made e flag,e rest try to come up wif cheers. played some games too. but e group wasnt as fun. everythings so cold and weird. dun reallie like my grp. :( besides, we need to think of wad to perform for performance nite and the theme is high sch muscial. my grp wanne do e dance "we're all in this tgt". LUNCH was next. then they taught us business sch mass dance. but i still prefer TP mass dance more! :D wee! we did TP mass dance, and chicky dance too! FUN! hahas.. after dat, we continued practicing our performance. we added in a short skit too. then, it was dinner. WOOTS! kleon helped us buy bubbletea! luxury in camps! :D we kept reharsing our performing item till 7plus and we're off! as usual, before e performances start, we played BOMB and WHERES E PEANUT. we're e 2nd grp to perform. wow. it was fast. and thank god everything went on fine. :) oohs. i think e best performance was e last grp, MIKA! damn cool! they did dance. first was hip hop den slow,gay dance. damn funnie! cute.:D hees. and e best part...after performances,theres...JAM AND HOP! cool! hahas.. a short one. did TP mass dance, BUSINESS sch mass dance and temasek sch song! this totally reminds me of FOC! but i think FOC is better den tis. :( omg. so hot. all of us are sweaty after dat. as e saying goes, e night is still young. we're having NIGHTWALK! :D creepy! we were being briefed abt it. theres story line. we hav to find whos e murderer. theres onlie me and rui xin,and 3 guys in e grp. we have to move frm stations to stations in biz sch. there are wandering ghosts to scare u, ghosts at stations where u have to find clues and lastly,the KILLER! u mus try to avoid e killer for if he catches u,u will have to stay ALONE behind fer abt 30sec! >< at first we were quite freaked out. but i was fine after awhile. rui xin was so funnie. she have to rotate and hold on to e guys. hahas. one of e gal ghost was scary! she stood in front of us, blocking our way. suddenly, without warning, she jus THUD. fall to the ground and crawl towards us! LOL. good one. in fact, i recognise who are they and some are my frens..so nt scary at all. finally, e walk ended. :) after e nightwalk, we had supper. biscuits. and debrief. we're off to our rooms. we supposed to sleep with e groups we are in. but i moved over to Lyion, sleep wif becca and grace. :D in fact, they dun care, u can slp anywhere u wan. i was so tired. so i took a short nap first. at ard 3, woke up and went to bathe. WOOTS! theres no one! :D hees. after dat, we went back to e room and and the FA was talking abt GHOST STORIES abt TP biz sch! OMG. scary. theres one abt a tut room wif a TOLIET. i nv noe theres such a room! and..the room i supposed to sleep in have a TOLIET! ><> it was so cold! i woke up a few times bcos of my COLD feet. imagine FBT short and bare feet in cold aircon room with no blanket! woke up at7am e next morning. had to play game first thing in e morning! we had to find "treasure" which is our breakfast. went to amphithreatre. had sandwich competition and made our own breakfast. after dat was games. quite fun though. :) ohs! the best part. JOHAN HAD TO KISS ELAINE'S LIPS! hahas. xp its like on a pole, u hav to choose a place. which will determine where u'll be kissing. johan chose e lips! in fact,most of them dint noe wad does e diff parts of e pole means..one even had to kiss e butt! LOL. afterdat was battle of the sexes! woots! one of e battle was disgusting! 7 representatives frm each sexes, each given a toothbrush with toothpaste on it. with dat, they hav to try to produce as much FOAM as possible in e given time. OMG! theres BLOOD in one cup and its so damn disgusting! ><> forfeit were decided by US! :D hees. they had to run ard mushroom 3 rounds half naked, shouting GALS RAWKS. kneel dwn and say they cnt live without gals. and lastly, wahid had to come out and choose a gal and hug her. but ended up, he was being teased. a guy wif long hair "kissed" him..and he dint noe cos he had to close his eyes! poor wahid..after dat he was going ard asking whos e "gal" who kissed him jus now. LOL. and..dat was his first "kiss" after dat was lunch. we had a long break. was taking a short nap. den we're off fer briefing fer FINAL SHOWDOWN. its abit like final crash. but much more organised. :) i like. we had to go over to e other empire and challenge them to scissor, paper,stone! LOL. if u lose,e winner will take ur water bomb and brust it on top of ur head and u will have to be their Prisoner of war. wee..TIGGO won! :D woots. in e end, 13 ppl frm e empires came out and versus the main comm! and..sub comm WON! :DD hahas. after dat, we took our camp sub comm tees. i left the camp soonafter. went to meet deardear after TWO LONG WEEKS! finally! hees. his mum was there too. he bought sushi! Our dinner.his mum bought tau suan and cheng theng too! then went to his place. :) left ard 8 plus. deardear was like rushing like mad..last min packing and stuff. loll. his dad sent me to tamp bus interchange while deardear and his mum went to TM buy wristguard. hees. im so happie! 1st: i saw deardear! xD 2nd:finally, all project DONE! :D 3rd:im able to REST! u're getting on my nerves sometimes..i reallie dunnoe if u're reallie like dat or are u acting. and worse thing..u dun even noe dat im nt happie wif u. are u real dumb or act dumb? Saturday, 21 July 2007 woos. jus updated and uploaded loads of pics into my blog! check it out below! :D hmms, woke up at 7.20am! im LATE! instead, dad fetched me to sch. THANK YOU DAD. i noe u wun read tis, but im reallie am grateful fer fetching me to sch nt once but lots of times, without complaining. :) (when i asked my dad if he can send me to sch, my mum frowned at me! i noe i shldnt bother my dad..but im reallie LATE!) met kang cheng,diana, lucinda, huachi, nicholas and desheng at bizpark. waited fer some time till its our turn to plae! captains ball! :) woots! we were confident and we did well! thrashed dat class! :D 26:12 hees. but it rained soon after. everyone rushed to sports complex. we waited till 11 plus before e match regains. we versus CLASS 05! it started off well.. with 6:8 they were leading. we still stand a chance. we carried on playing. but...things got worse. PEOPLE STARTED PLAYING ROUGH! wth. hate it. Damn shyte! theres tis small and short guy called SOON WEE. (hahas, lulu and i had a deal to help him PUBLICIZE his name. put BIG BIG. xp) gosh. he was so rough. lucinda complained dat he kept stepping on her feet.. some guys gt 'hammered' by him. toot him luhs. den theres tis real tall defender.. hes kinda violent too. lu said he hit my head. hahas..i cnt rmb. but he snatched e ball wif me and diana! and in a mess, diana's eye gt cut and POKED! ><> in e end, we dint even hav e mood to play anymore. we walked off. we were seen as e sore losers. but..come on. who can stand dat. esp e SOON WEE. tsk. he and huachi were going fer a ball..den huachi gt it. dat SOON WEE ah..PUSH huachi! like WTH. -.- SHORT luhs. =x the referee was obviously BIAS! she was with THEM. she even said to them,"they play violent u oso play wif them luhs" =.= FINE. we walked off. e course manager saw us. he told us its jus a game..jus get on wif it. yeah, we gt wad u meant. but u SEEN them playing unfairly too.. wo men chi bu xia! yi to zhi qi ahs! seriously e gurls are fine. its jus e GUYS! forget it. we went to eat. had KFC. gosh. they came too. the game was postpone due to e rain. ha. GD LUCK MAN! *diao look* desheng is a nice guy. he apologised to e catcher, as he hit his hand. :D goodjob desheng. :) at least we apologise when we done smth wrg. THEM? dat SOON WEE? HA! ungentleman! HEY SOON WEE, I DESPISE YOU! *ta xiao ren* HITHITHIT. ta ni de xiao ren TAO, xiao ren JIAO, SHOU, EVERYTHING OSO TA! =x diana, huachi and i walked desheng home. den we took bus 22. omg. long journey. im glad theres huachi and diana to talk to. :) e bus terminated at amk. den i took trian home. saw JAMES! hahas.. hes serving NS nw. im so TIRED. zZz.. reflection: i realised dat when ppl are angry..we will jus criticize and blame it on everything and everyone around us..except ourselves. but when we hav cooled down and think abt it..we will find out dat we're actually in e wrg too.. silly ya? but i guess dats how human nature is. :) even myself. lalalas... but i still HATE AHEM. tsktsktsk. *shake head* hahas..i forget abt my SHOEBAG again! xp its LULU who picked it up again. HOW?! STM!!! pictures taken when im out wif my sentosa colleagues! marina square. jus gt tis pics frm Candy! :D      MY CLASS! captains ball team.:) rebecca and i in e TOLIET cam whore. and lastly, CHERRY TRIFLE! dun drool! xp                supposed to blog last nite. but my mum was hogging on to my lappie. sigh. BEWARE: LONG BLOG ENTRY! 19thjuly. woke up wif a swollen left eye! SHYTE! no DOUBLE EYE LID! =( *tips for swollen eyes: fill a small plate wif ice water and leave a metal spoon in it. placed e cold spoon on ur swollen eyelid after a few mins. i tried. it works :)* YEA! dad sent me to sch too! skipped OB lect. =x met winner & we went to class tgt. after sch everyones off to do their comm skill project, leaving rachel & me alone. sigh. we joined huachi, nicholasZHENG and desheng to sports complex to watch interclass captains ball. (our turn tml!) OMg! nich is so ON and HIGH! LOL!!! as he was watching e class play, he was making loads of sarcastic comments like, " wa lau! wads dat! OPEN UR EYES! OPEN UR EYES!" *hammering his forehead & looking serious like a soccer coach* xp i was so HUNGRY! had cup noodles wif rachel outside library. she went to do project too. becca called. i acc her to hav lunch. AGAIN. ha! we went to SUGARLOAF! WOOS! :D theres onlie us & another grp of ppl. we had CHEERY TRIFLE! the one dat i had e other time. :) ohyeas! becca so CARTOON! hahas. she asked e waitress: erm, wads inside? * pointing to e cherry trifle* e waitress was able to ans a lil bit and shes stuck. so AWKWARD! den i gave becca " e look" and told e waitress its okies. hahas. hees! cherrytrifle! theres PEAR, APPLE, PEACH, GRAPES, etcs! FRUITS! too bad it aint as gd e e previous one. the top jam is too hard, fruits werent proportionately cut and nt nicely coated wif the cream. :( after sugarloaf, becca bought me 2 a secret place! ha..a TOLIET! xp e secret beneath? a FULL LENGTH MIRROR! damn BIG! hahas.. its like every girl's dream to have a mirror like dat in her room! =p we took some pics thou. ITS SO SPACIOUS! cool. i was BORED. so i followed becca to library. shes meeting her frens to do PROJECT! -.- i was 'studying' accounts..but i FELL ASLP! WTH. hahas. at ard 4pm, my track mate came & find me. we went to free access lab. NTH TO DO! went to GRACEPHUAS blog. saw LAME game LINK! addictinggames.com we were competing against each other! hahas..i LOST. I SUCKS AT GAMES! >< went to track at abt 6pm. ran ard e track fer 4rounds. coach was late. anyway, im so DISAPPOINTED wif my performance todae. i cldnt run. supposed to do time trial. sigh..asked to do 4 sets of 1K wif 1min interval. i did 2 sets and stopped. i was feeling dizzy at first. den my back started to ache. theres sharp pains at times. :( IVPs coming soon. oct. i reallie want to join. but..i cnt even beat my own sch's trackmate..how to compete wif others? im so depressed. seriously..i tot i was gd..but theres always someone better..too bad i wasnt e better one. sometimes i might even blame it on my back. WHY?! why out so many ppl, why me? it affected me so much. i believe those who reallie noe me, esp my sec sch mates, i HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS OF MYSELF IN TERMS OF SPORTS. but after my op..it seems dat i cnt do as well..i would think its such a WASTE. but wad to do? FATE. even DANCE. i used to be able to bend and flex it so well..nw? i cnt even stretch and do my warm up properly.. hav to forgo my SIT UPS, PUSH UPS, etcs... sometimes i may even wonder: will i be a better sportswoman without tis back pro? i guessed so. i noe its BHB..but i reallie HATE IT! i feel like i have a BURDEN! RIGHT INSIDE ME! and its FOREVER! :( oh yeahs, its my track vice-cap's b'dae. HAPPIE BIRTHDAE BENJAMIN! :) his classmates are NICE ppl! waited fer him until his training ends and prepared so much stuff! WATER BOMBS, WHIPPED CREAM and FRUIT CAKE! hahas.. it was messy. e worse part..e fruit cake was so TEMPTING!!! i wanted to eat it so much! too bad mungek THREW IT ON BEN! DAMN IT! e guy who bought e cake was so SHOCKED! he reallie meant to EAT e cake! hahas..poor thing. we even have to clean up e track ourselves. guessed hes too depressed..he ATE e fruits dat was on e track!!! he saes its ok, its covered wif e cake and cream. LOL. went to hav dinner tgt after dat. fang ee tried to suck up to e auntie taking his order by saying: wao, auntie ni heng hao. i nxt time ask e whole sch come and CHI NI DE." i dunnoe wad happened to me!!! i added," CHI NI DE TOFU arh! " OMG! hahas. i wanted to suan fang ee for sucking up de...but ended up suan dao auntie!!! ><> i WALKED to safra alone & took bus 168. OMG! e bus is FREEZING COLD!!! i nearly had frostbite. xp HAHAS. heng i gt my cardigan. 20thjuly i skipped accounting lect AGAIN. >< i jus cldnt gt out of bed! as mentioned, we hav captains ball todae, at 11am. i rushed dwn. in e end, took a cab frm tamp to TP. diana passed me 5bucks. thank you. mum forget to give me pocket money. e rest were at complex hall practising. heh. our opponent walk over! DAMN IT. in e end, we were asked to wait till 1pm and play against class 18. before dat, we had friendly match wif a class. nt bad ehs. LOVE MY CLASS PPL! hahas.. theres lucinda, rachel, huachi, nicholas, desheng, kang cheng and I! all of us can play so well. we thrashed them. hees. :) took some grp pics too! finally when its 1pm! so excited! the guys were so rough. heh. BUT, we still WIN! thrashed them again! :D WOOTS! hope we can do well tml. too bad rachel cnt plae fer us tml. diana replace her. went to lect after e game. SO HUNGRY. lulu and i sneaked out & bought express sandwich. HUMPHS. e machine PIAN WO! tis shows a pic of MUSHROOM & CHEESE! ended up..pineapple BBQ sauce wif chicken! ARGHHH.. i wanted MUSHROOM so much! nvm. after lect, a few so us went to bizpark to EAT. lulu disappear fer a long time..rachel n i cldnt find her.. we tot she fell into e TOLIET BOWL. LOL. IM SO FORGETFUL! I FORGT MY SHOEBAG AGAIN!!! thanks LULU fer retrieving it fer me. :D pea brain of mine. aaron taking cab to town. rachel & i joined them too. oh my..so many ppl waiting fer cab too! so we walked ahead of them..tot of walking across e street to take instead..while walking, we saw a cab! we had a crazy idea! GO FER E CAB! anyway, they cant do anything to us fer snatching their cab! xp wahahas. evil! all of us kept luffing while getting on e cab! alright..mayb i shld sae IM THE ONLIE ONE WHO KEPT LUFFING..EVEN WHEN WE'RE ON E CAB ALR! i cnt STOP! e best part, lulu & rachel sae " quick, bend dwn ur head!!! dun let them recognise u!" *while e cab went pass those ppl waiting fer cab* LOL! i luffed till my tears dropped! i influenced e taxi driver!!! he LUFFed as he saw me luff! hahas..he sae im a HOLY LAUGHTER & cheer up his dae! xD HAHAS! dropped dwn at safra & took 168..long journey. going to cousin's hse at chao chu kang. i was so tired when im at her place! slpt frm 6.30 to 8 plus. watched TV and had mac delivery! hees. :D my aunt came hm soon after. my cousin went thru some accounting qns wif me. went hm ard 11pm. i was unsure of e LRT system thingy! i took e lift and went up to e platform. a LRT is there alr! i looked at e map, and realised im on e WRG plaform! its e opposite one! i had to ACT CALM. hahas..ppl were looking at me wit eyes saying, " tis gurl crazy ehs, stand there dun wan to come in.." i wandered ard e small platform..until e LRT LEFT! loll. i walked dwn e stairs and went up to e other platform! so MAH LU! reminded me of dat dae when im at e library on wed!!! LIFT AGAIN! i nv take e library's lift ALONE BEFORE! so dat dae, i went to meet becca to pass her her thumbdrive, i took e lift alone fer e 1ST TIME. i kept pressing 1. but theres NO LIGHT. i kept PRESSING & PRESSING! i even hammered it *no one wad* >< face="Trebuchet MS" color="#6666cc" size="4"> me: erm, sorrie, i want to go to level 1, but it doesnt light up. fake luffing budhha: er, lobby rite? its level 2. me: oohhs, HAHA (awkward luff) ok, thanks. * DAMN PAI SEH FACE* so, frm lvl 7, to lvl 4, den lvl 8, finally lvl TWO! LOL. maybe i shldnt have luff at dat gurl ( the lift incident at student lounge) KARMA!!! deardear is falling sick inside. i cnt do anything. sigh. hope dat he recover fast. misses. |
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