deep within me
maybe its love
Wednesday, 30 July 2008

its a WISH COME TRUE. :D

alright, if u have read my previous posts, u should know wads my BIGGEST WISH which i had been dragging on for months.. teehees,

YESH, MY NAVAL PIERCING~!

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surprise surprise! seriously, i was so anxious to get one. dat i decided 29July2008 shall be the day! i pluck up all my courage to walk up to the shop, and said i want it done. i started feeling all cold and nervous on the train on the way there. & when i reached far east, my steps getting smaller and slower..dragging my foot which felt like tons heavy. blahhhh.. bf was there pulling me.

an Indian guy served me. he was telling me about how much the diff studs cost. i cnt rmb e plain one, i think either $40 or $55. somewhere there. then the single diamond stud was $65 and the double diamond stud $70. i was persuaded to get e double one as it cost just $5 more for one more diamond. HAHAS! BLING BLING. =x then a lady helped me with choosing the diff diamond stud placing it on my naval. i was so tempted to get my fav TURQUOISE coloured stud! but in e end settled for sliver pink gem stud. :D

sign a document. then off to the shop just beside. some guys doing tattoo there. i was asked to go into this small lil room. the piercer look so familiar! hes e one who helped xiaxue wit her tongue piercing! great honoured. =p hahas. he prepared the neccesary stuff, did some disinfections before he used a marker to mark the spot on my naval. i was shivering when he was drawing it! super pai seh. =x then i laid down on chair, i couldnt and wouldnt want to see wads going on down there! i just looked up at e ceiling.. waiting for instructions. i saw e process on youtube before, so i kinda alr know wad was going on. asked to take a deep breath.. and within 2 deep breaths, its IN.

seriously, it doesnt hurt. just a lil when he push e needle in. but after dat its all nth. even i was shock when it was done & wasnt painful. just like a pencil poking it. and i would say the ear piercing hurts more than e naval one. :x

i was all happy after piercing. BUT THEN all the mixed emotions came flooding in! i was told not to exercise for 1mth! freaking 1 mth! SHIT. im in deep deep shit. i realised i promised to play for matthew's team on friday! bf forbids me to play no matter wad. no choice, had to find replacement. thank god scand grace helping me. :) thanks darling. BUT still gt track tng! i havent been going man. and now this. =.= blahh. dead. so dead.

im so contradicting. one min all happy getting something i want so badly done and next getting all troubled by all the shits. :(

anyway, YES! its FINALLY DONE. wish fulfilled. next up would be tattoo when im 21! :D hees. i noe alot of people would be taken aback to know i will do such things. since i look like some 乖乖 and doesnt rebel much. & as often this kinda things are labelled as REBEL. but. im sure some people did those stuff for a reason or another. unlike some who really is bo liao and anyhow tattoo here and there luhs.

i would say i want something that simplify FREEDOM. and dats wad 21 simplify too right? is like another phrase of my life and i wante mark it down. :)

ohs, and i went sentosa with bf ytd! since both of us doesnt have sch. :) am so jolly!

i see and feel the sun baby!

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thot it would be quite empty as its a tuesday. but unexpectedly, there are not one but two grps of people having orientation thingy. so they kinda disturbed the tranquility of the whole place. i heard cheers that are so familiar! :x hahas!

in e end we settled on some lil island opposite. TIME TO SUNBATHE! whoo~! but i was feeling all dehydrated and we were sweating like hell. sauna man. then bf went all e way to 7 eleven to buy drinks back. poor darling. 辛苦了。after sunbathing, went to wash up. & damn, i went into the wrong changing room! HAHAS. =x they exchanged e rooms due to some construction work. blahh.. nice one. so embarrassing!

after that we went to town for piercing.. then dinner at cwp. met scand becca to pass me indemnity form for bsc sub comm camp! sat and sun! oh man. my weekend! =.=



Monday, 28 July 2008

HA! i think i smell like mould now. =x have been rotting at home on a nice sunday! :( wad a waste. however, ytd was never a waste! spent my day finishing up my HR project! managed to finish wadever shits left by late noon! whee! felt so relieved after completing! :D managed to meet tard for dinner after his work. supposed to meet at vivocity. but had a change of plans later. we ended up at cathay. we wanted to catch a movie, preferably the dark knight. but... it was sold out! so sadd. den we decided on prom night.. THEN. when we are maybe 3 person behind e counter, e screen showed, PROM NIGHT blinking in red i think.. WHICH MEAN SOLD OUT! zzz. so we left e queue. damn suay right. =.=

then tard bought me to billy bombers for a feast! :D i had my sirloin steak and he had his ribs again! waited a long time for my dish and when it came, i was so unhappy. it looked so unappetizing! duhhhh.. the steak was overdone. when i told e waiter i want it medium raw. so bf helped me to ask for a change. waited a long while before it came.. this time it looked so juicy! unlike e previous dry steak. and e mashed potato was still steaming hot! same goes for e spinach! yum yum. :D

after the dinner we headed to plaza sing. i wanted to get e hairband/headband! urghh. but i never seems to find e colour and type dat i wanted. :( boos. in e end, we did a lil shopping.. rather me. HAHAS. yeah, & i bought a new bikini from fox! hees, tard paid half for me! :D the total price should be $65, but i bought it at half e price! whoo!

oh, and i banged into my laopo grace on e way home! :D i miss her freaking loads. even thou we dint manage to talk alot, but there are simply thousands of things i wanne talk to her abt.. i just miss the good old days. as simple as dat. we promised to meet up during holidays. im looking forward to it. :)

thanks dear for the dinner & stuff.. not forgetting your love. :) harts u loads.

wish me luck for tml's access test!



Friday, 25 July 2008

enough of slacking. was sitting in front of the tv after dinner all the way till NOW. omg. im gonna grow FATFAT.

actually i really dun mind growing FATTER but i definitely dont wan a FAT TUMMY! that would be the last ting that is gonna happen! even tard said dat my abs seemed to have NUA. urgh.. CNT. JANICE HUAY TIME TO WORK OUT! and i havent been going training again! shits. i promise i will be back after my bloody affair and projects! :D

&& i still havent get my piercing! so sadd. i keep procrastinating! and i was watching 9pm show; beach ball babes? yea. jade seah got navel piercing! & watching dat show makes me wanne learn volleyball! awww... li juan mummy hint hint. =p and i so gonna get a new bikini!

oh! and mummy cooked my favourite dishes! gonna vacuum up all the remaining food later. =x shit. FAT again. bahahas. have been weighting myself since mum bought a new weighing machine. its glass-like and digital! woohs. and i weigh 42kg! no matter how much i eat.. it still 42! it will never go up! it makes me wonder WHERE ALL THE FOOD WENT?! sometimes i cnt help but wonder why is it so amazing.. like e.g we eat 2kg of meat, why doesnt we weigh 2kg heavier after eating dat! where is e 2kg meat?! -.- okay, nvm, dat makes me sound like a bimbo. LOL. anyway, really wonder when will i ever reach my desire weight, 45kg! rawrs. and i want meat at e RIGHT place pls. WAHAHAS. =x oops.

as usual had lunch wit utmost love. :) sweets. another bitching session. i really think alot after talking to her. it makes me think..i do choose friends? as in i do choose friends, in the sense of like who will be my bestest closest friends. not in e sense of like material friends or watever shit. yupp. and i realise i do really need to make an effort to catch up wit friends.

saw li juan mummy on the way to class. shes so nice today! she waited for me to go home tgt! wahahas. :) and again, we did SHITS and CRAPS. i swear we are e noisiest creatures on the bus! HOR LJ?! once i even laughed till i TEARED! lol!

she damn irritating, there imitating my voice..den she thot nobody hears it.. then before we knew it, the indian guy in front of us turn behind and stare at her! OMG! i swear it was super funny! and e guy was wearing earpiece! HE CAN HEAR HER LOH! and we were like thinking wad th guy was thinking when he turned back! imagine he hearing a high pitch tone voice talking.. assuming a petite lady talking. thenn when he turned behind..its LIJUAN! who was rather butch-looking. WAHAHAS. damn funny! and we reckon he wanted to slap her when he saw her doing that! HAHAS. and noobshit mummy drive me crazy till i have to make friend with the window and talk to it like an IDIOT! HAHAS. omg. thank ahs li juan. great entertainment. :p

before i end, shall do graciie's tag before she complains again. =p HAHAS. and i saw my BIG BIG NAME on ur blog! :D

oh, and yins did tag me too! hahas, shall do it tgt then. for my two darlings, grace and yins. :)

 #1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- I will cry my heart out and break up wit him. And I will never ever gonna forgive him. (Hear that bf? :p HAHAS. Jk luhs, I noe u wont. Hees.)


#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- to lead a perfect life. Which is nearly impossible. Life is full of imperfections and up & downs. Boos.


#3. What will your dream wedding to be like?
- HAHAS. Omg. I haven’t thot of it yet. Thou I did thot of my dream propose. Hmm..i want it to be decorated in shades of pink and white! A pretty and sexy grown. :p In a grand hotel. Like swissotel. Then with a big dancefloor. So imagine after the dinner, my guest can stay back, let their hair down and DANCE before heading back. Woot. I dunnoe, it sound so crazy. =p and and I want a video of US; our love story! And like becca, I want engagement by the BEACH too!


#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- YES! My life seems to be ever changing. I dunnoe what lies ahead seriously. It seems like whatever I planned to do, always ended up another way. But I still believe there is always a way out.


#5. what's your ideal lover like?
- sporty, taller than me, filial, capable and plan well for his future. And most importantly, CARES AND LOVES ME A LOT! :D (bf fulfil some of it..but still way to go! Xp heehee.)


#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being loved by someone…YOU LOVE AS WELL.


#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- for as long as possible. But if he really rejects me and state his reasons firmly, I will just walk away. No point waiting for a guy when he doesn’t feel the same for me. Yupp.


#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- loll. I will just forget about it. NEXT PLS.


#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
- PROJECTS! And some idiotic person who put me off. other than that, ima happy girl. :)


#10. Is being tagged fun?
- hahas.. depends on e quiz.


#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
- oh! I will be 28! So old! I will be married happily with kids! 2 preferably. & stable in a career I enjoy doing. Heehee.


#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- my family, my tard, my friends and my dogs! :D


#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- WAHAHAS. GRACE and YINS. Grace first: er, she ah, super lame! She never fails to bring a smile on me with her lame jokes. Besides she is someone I can confide in and she is really a great pal. J Yins: bubbly girl. Someone whom u can chit chat with on almost everything under the sunshine. She is also rather straight forward.


#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
- HAHAS. Rich and single NOW. Cos I dun wane be married now..not to mention POOR.

.#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
- brush teeth? HAHAS.


#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- YEAH. If hes the right one. And I noe he is serious about it too. J


#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- the one who love and care more abt me!

#18. What type of friends do you like?
- Can click can alr! :D


#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
- er.. two sided face kinda person.

 

okayy.. got to go back to project after hours of resting.

to be done by tml:

  • edit hr report again
  • self reflection report
  • finish up peer teaching notes
  • mindmap
  • compile all the links

wish me luck.:(

nontheless, happy 7th month my tard. :)



Thursday, 24 July 2008

PROJECT MADNESS!!!

utmost love say i havent been updating.. boos. all thanks to projects luhs! projects are all over! thank god, monday done with MBS project. WHOO. now left with HRM, Sociology and water tech.

just finish my HRM report! whee~! but its just report! still have one quarter of peer teaching notes, mind map, self evaluation to be done! *faint* weekend gonna chiong water tech project. as for sociology, im so clueless man! =.= kill me. i just gt the vcd frm my groupmate and asked to do on culture. i have no idea how i can apply culture in coach carter movie pls. and tml is consultation! my grp mate say its alright, shall present to teacher wad we have first. idk. i definitely doesnt wante be e next 'blood sucker'.

had HRM project meeting today. i was super duper late. like reach at 2 plus when the was supposed to be 11. =x and when i reached, jillian told me what happened earlier on and i really dint noe how to react. to cry or to laugh. loll. she told me not put my thumbdrive into that comp. & said that it killed hers and nat's. i saw e USB port and i was like.. one look and i noe its obviously FAULTY! cos the top part where u insert e USB is gone, leaving a few weird looking wire sticking out. & they can put their thumbdrive in!!! zzz. i thot that was bad enuff.. den the next part i thot was even worse! nat put it in and her thumbdrive was killed. then jillian still can put it in after that! they tot is nat's thumbdrive that is faulty. but obviously its not. is like.. 一山还有一山dumb. -.- and thus BOTH thumbdrive were KILLED in that incident. nice one. so poor jillian who cnt afford to lose her thumbdrive had to redo everything. poor ladee.. but seriously, im admiring her more & more.

i thot she was a nerd at first. =x those smarty pants and super hardworking type of girl. but i realise shes not only good in studies, but knowing the fashion trend and stuff thou she herself doesnt dress up.. she listens. and someone whom you can confide in. besides, i really like her temper. which is NO TEMPER. she control her emotions really well. she knows she cnt lose her thumbdrive.. and when such incident happened, she was so calm. im veri sure i would jolly well break down in tears and start grumbling over and over again why such thing happened to me. but she dint. she can even tell me.. what for sad over such thing that had alr happened? nth will change and shes running short of time. lastly, shes holding 2 jobs! shes like e ultimate supergirl. i cnt help but admire such a girl. :) & if Jillian if u happen to read this, pls dont fly to the heaven or cry cos u're so touched. =p

oh, and dad had an eye operation today! hes fine! :D but his left eye was covered with this cool blue transparent plastic to protect his eye i think. SO COOL. i mean it isnt e ugly white colour plastic with holes eye protector! its TRANSPARENT BLUE! wahhaas. okay, sounded so sua ku. =x anyway, he needs loads of rest and mum took 2 days off to look after him. :) how sweet. sheer bliss. and which means mums is cooking tml! seriously i miss mum's home cooked food more than anything else. she have been working frm morning to night and too busy to cook dinner. so i really appreciate it and esp happy when she cooks! :D

hmm, spent my day wit my tard ytd. mac delivery. & he sent me all e way to tamp before meeting his friends. :) class ended early and was mugging for water tech test all the way till 6pm. ohman. find e paper rather tough. but i think can manage a pass. =x hahas. we shall see. but i really see the hope of this subject being my first A to ever appear on my poly report. i really hope so. :) after the test, was hanging ard with my classmates before my parents come at 7 plus. omg! i feel so shiok. =x evil grin. seriously, it was so unexpected! wahahas. i dint noe they doesnt like the 'blood sucker' too! its like.. common target. LOL. we were practically bitching abt her luhs. the best part is i dun really noe them, and bcos of 'blood sucker' we were like chatting like we knew each other well. WAHAHAS. we shared the same exact sentiments abt her.

at first, my other friend say she did 'do' the project.. and i was like feeling super gulity. thinking maybe it was me who misunderstand her. but later, i realised no. she dint do it. THEY kinda COPIED ANOTHER GROUP's and other people helped them. and they were like complaining to me wad she did and blah blah. whoo.. so dont bother to change ur image in my mind. you are nth but a bloody project sucker.

and i finally got the pictures from becca after all that chasing! wahhaas. :) feast for e eye!


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jan,serena,cy
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cy playing the piano.
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with bday girl and the balloons i blew till im short of breath.
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bday cake!
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her mum & her sis.
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the babes.
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er.. the gays? =x
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us. :D
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happy becca. :)
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fruits + choco. :)
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gossiping session. =x
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camwhoring. :)
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and the 'sleepover'
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the end.

coming up next, zilra outing at chomp chomp.:)



Tuesday, 22 July 2008

ohman. look at e time now. its alr 2am! just finish 'revising' for my water tech lecture quiz tml! seriously, i couldnt concentrate. urghh.. i think i took like 2hrs for one topic and it barely register into my pea brain. boos. just hope i will be able to make it tml.

anyway, had been a great day starting off with some of my music which had just been transferred to my mp3! whoo~! is love. keep repeating it thru out my whole journey to sch. =x

did i mention i had a presentation today? yupp. it went on smoothly..but somehow average, not up to standard i think. i really admire one of the grps in my class..they are ever so prepared and always do it so professionally. aw man. and we gotten back our business finance paper. i managed a pass! woot. loll! not veri pleased, but at least i passed e paper when i thot i fail. WAHAHAS.

someone just got me freaking bloody pissed today. in fact not the first time. *duper disgusted look* seriously, i hate it when ppl say "wa, so lucky, u passed" *curse & swear* pls loh, i did put in loads of effort and studied for it okay! it dont come "luckily" thanks for dat comment ahs.

& dun understand why some ppl can be so thick skin. =.= self praising just isnt going to get u anywhere my dear girl.

last but not least, i just cnt stand project loafers. or smth. i cnt rmb. yeahs. as in those we doesnt put in effort to do their work and depend on others? i understand sometimes we tend to fall into dat category too when we're unsure or we just doesnt show interest in dat subject. i admit i did. but i realise some ppl just like to "suck blood off people". they just doesnt WORK and DEPEND so on others.. and i realise dat particular person not only did it for dat particular project, but apparently other projects as well. and they can just pull on a 'show' in front of others (including tutors) dat they are doing work when they arent! *screw those ppl ya* im sorry but i just cnt stand it. the sight of *toot* just irks me.

if u wanne prove to me what i say wasnt true. show me quality work and prove. i had e "taste" of it before and i just have to say YOUR WORK sucks! nuff said.

gotta catch some beauty sleep. nights. will be bogged down with projects this week. pull it thru JANICE and it will all be O-V-E-R soon!



Saturday, 19 July 2008

woowhee. im feeling GOOD today! :D

alright. havent been blogging for abt a week? =x had been feeling rather tired this week. i dunno why.

anyway, went to BSC sub comm interview ytd! went wif scandals grace & becca, tgt with grace's freshies! i swear this is e NOISIEST interview i have ever been to! *stare at grace* loll. we were all separated into either 2 or 3 peeps a grp. i was with becca. :) our was sweet, short, soft. UNLIKE *ahem*.. super noisy luhs. den we couldnt hear e interviewer's qn & e interviewer cnt hear our answer! so overall, it was a STRESS-FREE interview. :D

then chiong MBS project all the way till abt 8? supposed to meet matthew & co to play bball at 6..so by the time we finished project it was rather late and i decided not to play alr. oh, and i met my sec sch friend, luoping! her bf taking part in pol-lite tennis. :) cool. seems like all e sports are having pol-lite now.

after that we went to opposite sch to find matt & had dinner tgt before heading home. and while waiting for the bus home, i was feeling so terrible! i felt as if my bladder is going to bust anytime! =x so we stopped at mrt station to PEE. HAHAS. and to our 'pleasant' surprise, my freshies were in the bus! sat beside my NOOBSHIT li juan mummy. loll! we did loads of shits thru out the whole journey but i swear it was damn funny! keep luffing until the back of my head hurts so much and my voice is coarse! shes sucha great entertainmemt luhs! hahas, she told me jokes. DIRTY one somemore! eeyer. hahas. but the funniest joke wasnt the 2 jokes. but the one abt

HER FALLING OFF HER SEAT IN THE BUS WHEN SHE WAS SLEEPING TOO SOUNDLY!

loll! i think i was luffing for like a few mins loh! HAHAS. i love noobshit li juan yo! hahas. & sky! dun call me noobshit can! im not! u poophead. wahhaas. =p & im really in track! dun believe jiu suan le! tsk.

talking abt this, people were asking if im taking part in IVP. i would say no. cos my mentality is.. if i cnt even beat my school mates, why go compete wit other schs. yeahs. even thou i admit i would like to. i mean who doesnt want to represent their own sch and excel in smth they like. & i always thot it was volunteer kinda thing. so..im still clueless. provided coach got choose me to take part in any category. its still too early to say. ohs, and on tuesday trng, coach asked me to run 2 sets of 5 rounds. instead of 2 sets of 4 rounds i think. yeah. so i was super elated. :) yeahs. so i really put in a lot of effort to perform well and im proud to say im happy wit my performance. :) *pat on back* managed to keep up wit my other teammates. & yining who is running side by side with me.. i really like it. it kinda keeps me running. and as a gauge if im falling behind or not. im satisfied. whee.

alright! got to rush off to meet scandal becca for shopping! & zilra dinner gathering at chomp chomp later! i is happy! :D byes.

tadah.miss me okays.xp



Saturday, 12 July 2008

just came back from the dentist. was feeling all nervous & worried at first. but it proved to be redundant. theres good & bad news.

good news: only 1 tooth decay.. when i thot theres like alot. :/ heh. pessimistic as usual. bad news: have to remove 2 WISDOM tooth! i dint even noe my wisdom tooth came out! ohman. nt 1 but 2! had to take x-ray & remove surgically. urghh.. & it cost 300 per tooth? boohoos. :(

so he just did the fillings, clean & polished my teeth. it bled! omg! bloody affair. & my mum was there overlooking the whole process? like omg.. so tak glam. all dat blood..fillings flying around.. and my jaw muscle seriously ache from all that 'mouth-opening' activity luhs.

& finally when im done, the dentist asked me to bite my teeth tgt. i did as said. then he asked," is dat how u bite ur teeth?" lol! cos i dont own a set of straight teeth you noe. & if u do realise, my lower jaw is protruding out. :( which is why i hate my side view so much. grr.. he recommend me to go for braces. $3,500 eh! my mum say she will consider. aw man. 1.5years and i cnt imagine myself with braces if she really approve! ohmyohmy. if i were to have braces, i want it in Turquoise! :D

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oh! did i mention i SCREWED UP my business finance paper this morning?! sucky paper i would say. chachacha. 10m on a particular topic area..and i was damn suay luhs. its the part which i wasnt veri much clear on! RAWRS! i reckon i will even pass. :( heh. & after the paper, saw utmost love's msg! she woke up at 10am when the paper commenced at 10! poor darling overslept. oh man.

alright. back to reading my "memoirs of a geisha". it got me addicted. :) zai jian le.

i dunnoe but i start to feel that my blog is starting to get abit boring in here. sigh.

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Friday, 11 July 2008

gaaawww.. super cold now. hope i will be able to catch a good night sleep. im SLEEP deprived!

frankly, i had been quite down on luck this week. grrr.. esp on tuesday. =.= i was dead beat after track training. then went to buy bday cake wit weng for ronald before heading home. had only one donut for dinner. pathetic right.

it seems like my luck ran away from me. first, just one stop before heading off to the highway, the bus BROKE DOWN! nice one. then it just stop right at e side of the road. the bus driver said nth at all! he just stop, the mobile tv, aircon and lights still on. its a double decker bus. so everyone just continue sleeping since the bus driver dint say anything, & we just assume hes fixing the bus & will be done in a few mins. but.. 5mins went by...10min..15min..20min.. =.= omg! nth was done.

apparently someone decided to leave. so e rest of us followed too. some guys confronted the bus driver.. the rest of us cnt be bothered & just take e other bus. upon reaching my place i was feeling so HUNGRY! so decided to gt mac. it was 24hrs, and i was SUPER lucky luh. there is this "closed" sign hanging at e door! zzz. MAC was CLOSED! when have u seen a 24hr mac close?! how lucky right?! then i was wearing my new flip flops which gave me painful blisters at e side! ohman! wad a day i thot.

& ytd, i was dumb enough to print my 6 one-sided page lecture notes for 3 bucks! =.= the powerpoint slides were in colour and obviously the new auntie dint ask if i want black&white or coloured ones and she just print coloured ones for me. 3 bucks eh! kill myself! after which, town with my tard and we watched "hancock"! hmms, i thot it would be another typical superhero movie, but theres a twist in it and somewhat i dint expect it. cool. :)

& finally met up with utmost love today for 'update session' and lunch. :) miss her loads. and love, if you're reading this pls take care of yourself! again, im nt those who will interfere wit your choices. its ur life. you choose ur path, your own decision and of cos ur own consequences. :) but no matter wad i will be behind you as long as you're happy. :)

oh and im having a lil break tml! no school! wheee~! :D BUT i still gotta study for the freaking b.finance test on sat! & i have dentist appointment after dat! ohman, im so worried and scared! :( hate all that drillings..the taste of those weird stuff & probably BLOOD? *faint* i hope everything will be fine.

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off to brush teeth & lala land~!

to becca:

you're not alone alright. i noe it had been a sucky week for you. but dont give up. it will be fine. believe in sunshine after rain. :) something good will happen after all that bad stuff. dont cry over spilt milk alr okay. since we cnt do anything abt u being late for e 3rd time for dat subject..take it as a lesson learnt alright. :) cheer up. i noe its not really your fault u have to rush project and thus being late. but i guess we just have to find a solution for it? i think ur grp members have their part to play too. dunt be such a goody and let them take you for granted! u do your part and they have to do theirs! as for time management, try to manage properly ya. anyway, dont worry too much alr. things will be straighten out as time comes. and remember people will care even thou we are busy wit our own lives! at least u shared wit me your troubles.. i listened. but i apologise too for unable to be there for u physically. but be dependent and pull it thru until we met. i will give you all the huggs and comfort you ever needed then. :) hang in there scand. you are not alone.

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i will be beside you.

she gave me a smile & a praise.

she put a smile on my face.

esp when i thot she dint care or a thot as silly as she dint like me.

im too sensitive.

thanks anyway.

but i doubt she will see it.



Monday, 7 July 2008

oh man. the weekend is like O-V-E-R.

just completed my tutorial. hees, ima good girl yayys. :D but still have tons to do. like my HR project, MBS project, WaterTech class test on tues and Business finance test on sat. =.= ohmyohmyohmy! *jumps off building*

anyway, put those irritating stuff aside, time for some updates! :D

firstly, it was MY scandal REBECCA's 18th birthday on sat!

HAPPY (belated)BIRTHDAY SCAND!

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(for u, i shall put it in BLUE okay!) hahas.

i swear we were damn evil. we actually played a prank on rebecca! to be specific, it was serena's idea okay. *points finger to serena* =p HAHAS!

so we were invited to rebecca's stayover party at her place on friday. then all of us told her we couldnt make it last min with all types of excuses. at first i was worried she would suspect since all of us are zilra-ians. BUT, SHE DINT okay! loll. so those in e plan are serena, chang yong, grace, weng and me. kleon and elaine were told abt it but werent involve in e mia part.

the original plan was to gather & surprise her at 12am at her doorstep. but changed last min. since some will be coming late. instead serena and i met up at cwp, bought some BLUE balloons, strings and a cup before rushing to her house. her dad was nice to drive us there. :) we were so worried she would reach home b4 us! but she dint. (go read her blog to know HER side of story!) HAHAS. so Serena and i hid in one of the rooms, blew lots of balloons. then came chang yong! this time, rebecca was home alr. and she was so upset, she was playing super duper uber SAD songs on her piano luhs. and serena and i were luffing like crazy. damn evil! wahahas.

then cy went to the door. becca stopped playing and while she was still shocked tat cy came, we came out of the room with lots of blue balloons and sang happy birthday song from behind! :D whee~! the surprise was a SUCCESS! cool. she just "omg" like millions time and hug us. HAHAS.

her mum was so cooperative! hahas. and she was telling us how gullible rebecca was since young. HAHAS. abt how she believe eating long beans would make u grow taller. =x (becca will come chasing after me for typing tat. BUT I DONT CARE! HAHAS) and we were luffing when her mum told us abt the phone call she made when she was coming home alone. super funny! =x oops oops oops. karma will eat me alive.

yupps. then grace came. we had pizza! and grace was super cold and lame as usual breaking the ice. HAHAS.

then kleon & elaine came. kleon cnt tahan grace's coldness and kept suan-ing her! free entertainment for us. oh, then we had pasta, both cream and tomato. mango cake! and chocolate fondue! bet your saliva is dripping from the corner of ur mouth now. loll. oh, and wine! but i just dont know how to appreciate! ohman. gave my share to rebecca. :)

we bitched, we gossiped, we had FUN. :D and confusing people when they wish becca happy bday on msn. wahahas. =x & "who will you shoot, shag, marry" was FUNNY to the max. lol. and as usual, i wasnt allow to stay over. so went home wit serena ard 4 plus. :) good day spent.

apparently i slept into the noon. =x had lunch wit my parents. slacked at home until becca dated me out! :D we went bugis! i havent been there for ages. and i was in a SHOPPING MOOD! whatsmore the word "SALES" was so HUGE and STRIKING, appearing everywhere! how could i resist! right girls!? hahas.

finally bought a pair of flip flops from accessorize! im so aiming at e bangles. but abit pricey for the item. so skip. then bought a pair of shorts and high waist denim skirt! woos. super happy! HAHAS. but nth caught becca's eye. i felt so gulity cos its her bday but she dint buy anything and yet i bought so many things for myself! heh.

after all dat shopping, we had a hard time settling down for dinner since the shop is either closing or too crowded. in e end we settled down for mos burger and its her first time dining there! teehees, am so honoured. lol! anyway, hope becca enjoy ur bday surprises and ur evening spent wit ur darling scandal! :D HAHAS. and becca! rmb to write wad i told u to write okay! i want it BIG BIG too! HAHAS.

I LOVE SCANDAL BECCA!

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Thursday, 3 July 2008

really surprised to see encouraging tags from my trackmate, (even my track captain!) to my scand, then my pri sch bestie. hahas. and mysterious person. :) thanks. i guess i will hang on for as long as i can.

its a long day today with loads of shits to be done. its such a chore man.

& i thot it would be a great day today since i was in sch on time. & it seems perfectly fine in every way..

until.. i sat beside you. i dunnoe wads wrong. it felt so weird. it aint the same as before. dun understand why are u so cold today. we used to joke around & talked endlessly. but.. i dont want us to become this way. it feels so terrible to be left cold by someone whom was once so close to me. ouch. imissyourchirpyness&ourcrappymoments.

oh & HAPPY (belated)BIRTHDAY MY DANCING QUEEN, APPLE!

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celebrated her bday yesterday with scand zhen, fung yong, larry, rayna, fion, huiqi, yuan long, dexter & nich! really like the pub/cafe/restaurant! blu jazz cafe if im not wrong. located at haji lane! love the atmosphere. so cosy & relaxing thou we have to eat in the dark. :) passed by those stores selling clothes and im so tempted! gotta save up & shop there soon! :D i miss shopping loads!

please tell me it gonna be fine tml.



Wednesday, 2 July 2008

im physically & mentally tired.. maybe weng is right. my mentality aint as strong as i thot it was. i was again utterly disappointed with myself. :(

i went for training today. yupp. miracle, some would say. hahas. but im really hanging there. i havent find my answer to why am i still staying on. main reason maybe cos the friends i made; & how encouraging & supportive they were. motivating each other. i like the way it is, being part of long dist. some train hard to take part in competition and win it. some have dreams to fulfil. and that is what keep them going on, striving for the better and improving. but me? im clueless. it was true i had passion for running since young. i love it when NAFA was here. it was my time to shine. and due to the fact dat my sec sch doesnt have track, when i first joined track in poly, i was all excited and full of motivation. big bird even say to me today: you WERE one of the top runners when u first joined.

i realised. yupp. WERE. past tense. its all in the past. i gt to face up to reality.

i still rmb short distance coach giving us motivational talk some time ago during track camp. she mentioned commitment and discipline. i thot thru.. and i realised i had none of both. i was feeling so lost. why am i here. why?! i wasnt at all committed. cos i dint come for all trainings. neither am i disciplined enough to make sure i go training often. ohman. and to put it crudely, im too complacent. i dint believe not going for training often would not affect my stamina much. but i was proven wrong.

my speed & stamina dropped drastically. i was falling behind. and soon, my passion for track slowly died off. the thot of quitting is coming back again. sigh.

u must have wondered what caused me to have such sudden reflection abt track. obviously something happened and it kinda affected me. it may seems insignificant. but.. it just did. we were told to do sets of 800m today. coach told me 3 sets. and most of them including the juniors were told 4. a lot of things were going on in my head. i had to say this year batch of juniors are really good. and in fact better than me. but..somehow I was feeling so demoralised. i questioned myself. am i really lagging that behind. i dunnoe if u understand how i feel. but it just hurt terribly. and indirectly, its just indicating dat coach doesnt think well of me. and dat i couldnt perform. (i may interpret it wrongly, but at least dats how i feel and take it) i feel like killing myself right on the spot. the verge of breaking down.. but i know i cnt. it will only worsen his impression of me dat im a weakling. i had to be strong and instead take it as a "motivation" to work harder..just to prove him WRONG.

i did 4sets in the end on my own will. and my best timing was 4.04mins. thanks big bird for motivating me and grace for asking me to fasten my turn over. :) however, he took no notice of it. i consoled myself & said, all i need to impress was myself. (obviously i was lying thru my teeth).

i wante scream on the top of my lungs!

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unless i found my reason for staying..if not the "thot" will just keep coming thru.

thankyou my lovely trackmates for caring.:) & i hope i dint bore you guys to death. i know i shouldnt be blogging all abt track. but..i need to get it off my chest. thanks for bearing with me.

here are some peektures taken by adriel after track camp!

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afterall its part of my life isnt it?




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JANICE HUAY
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