deep within me
maybe its love
Wednesday, 30 April 2008

i was EXHAUSTED.
skipped school today. :x


havent been updating as frequent as before.
alright, both monday & tuesday were a long day for me.

ended school at 1pm on monday and i had 5hours to spend till track's orientation. (& YEA! im back again for training! :D super looking forward to a new start!)
so had lunch with my lovely new classmates at bistro walk. :D had spaghetti & strawberry ice cream waffle! thanks Jillian for e waffle! loves.
then met utmost love to ROT. went to clash her B.finance lecture! was super BORED. so we started camwhoring using Nich's hp. then i slept thru e lecture. =x

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after lect met alan who was super bored to chit chat at mushroom. my 'lil' random friend. LOL.

finally it was 6pm! rushed off to training with XIAO BAI! xiao bai freshie joining track & field! but hes long jump not long d de. :(

wow. TRACK & FIELD ROCKS man. it was so crowded luhs. cool cool. but long d only gt one girl. LOL. saw a few familar faces too! :D saw lynette! woos. shes joining track! (& again, she doesnt believe im in TRACK! grrr...) & my track mates were so shocked to see me! they were like saying go buy 4D cos its such a rare sight i came for training. HAHAS. slacker.

anyway, ran bedok reservoir. 5km pls. super shag. but im really happy with my performance! :D hees. then did some running around e track. :) & e usual dinner tgt after training.

tuesday
its BEN & JERRY's FREE CONE DAY!
went to white sands to queue up straight after our tut at 12 plus! i had cookie dough! whee~! its heaven man. saw slyvia & becca after getting our ice cream! the queue was damn long by then.
took cab back to school for lecture! luckily we made it in time. :)

supposed to have cds water tech tut. seriously, its my first time i have class at ITAS school. i was LOST. i spent like 10mins walking up & down to find my classroom! felt like an idiot. -.-
& when i finally found it, on e door was this notice: no class for w.tech 4-6pm. grr..
nice one. so called utmost love & slack with her. went to w.tech lecture with alice at 6pm! omg. miss her like crazy! so was super happy when i have her company. :)

then at night was VENOS chalet!
thank god theres grace, becca & jason at mushroom to accompany me to wait for nelson. then on the way saw a few freshies. so we took bus & walked in tgt. & the chalet was the LAST one. at e very end. damn tired.
woo.. the chalet was flooded with people! super happy to see the freshies again! took pics, eat, random chats. :)

went off with li juan, sophia & brenda!
thanks li juan for helping me with my bag. :) we were all exhausted. & when we saw the shuttle bus went past us, we were freaking mad! arggghh.. (golden larry on the freaking bus!) thank god brenda's uncle came and drove us out. thanks brenda!

took mrt back to tamp. then some venos freshies popped out. THEY TOOK THE SHUTTLE BUS OUT! ahhhh!!!
took bus with li juan & sophia home. :)

& li juan!!!
thanks HUR! *stares*
thanks for telling me theres a black pepper stuck btw my teeth...only after 1 and a half HOUR on e way back. *tsk*
& u can tell me u have been noticing it at the chalet. ahhhh! tek glam alr luhs!
somemore i took so many photos & was smiling the whole night!darn. i hope everyone dat night is as blind as sophia to not notice dat lil black pepper btw my teeth. :(



Sunday, 27 April 2008

whee~!
happy 4months superman!


heh. was kinda upset you werent able to spend time with me ytd. go club luhs hurr. *pinch ear* hahas.jus kidding luhs. i was the one who let u go anyway.
but i cnt help but grumble after dat! i dun care! its a fact u left me alone on our 4th mth! rawrs.

bcos of dat, we have to postpone our celebration to today!
& i guessed the punishment would be shopping with me? HAHAS.
but am real happy i finally SHOPPED! super happy! bought 3 tops & a faux leather vintage belt. :D hees.
new sem, new clothes!
new clothes say hie to janice's closet!

& i was so bored i came up with a lame story to entertain myself!

janice's closet: *open* "welcome in queen, flower & checkies!" (e 3 new clothes)
queen, flowery & checkies: *big waves* HIE!
queen (to flowery & checkies) : wow! our new house is so spacious! totally love it! & look! so many friends!
flowery replied: YEA! im so excited! *shake queen's & checkies's*
so queen , flowery & checkies were settled down in different places in janice's closet according to their 'races'.
they started making new friends & became part of janice's closet.
where they live happily ever after... :D

am really happy that i have gt new clothes. but on e other hand realising i burnt a hole in my 'purse' just sucks. :( boos. i shant think abt dat. yea.

after shopping went to starbucks to chill & talked abt everything & anything under e sun.
& we decide we wante do a TATTOO tgt! woohs! :D
i cnt wait man! & i want my belly piercing like SOON?! grrr..

Photobucketsay hie to checkies.

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to him:
im really touched u actually accompanied me to the doc the other day despite the fact dat u had to work. i was really disappointed to the max when i was told u couldnt make it at first. cos i need u. but u surpised me when u made a choice btw me & ur job. you chose me. thanks love.
every lil move we make will affect each of us.
cos its not YOU or me anymore. its US.

not forgetting some camwhoring. =x

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hooray to christmas couple! hiphip hooray!

lets carry on this love.


Wednesday, 23 April 2008

ARGGGHHH..
freaking pissed with blogger now!
i spent like 2hours trying to edit my previous zilra chalet post & was adding pics in..
TWICE. they dint save it and it couldnt be published.
next thing i know,the whole post was GONE. zoom. BLANK.

grrr..

alright. enough of cursing & swearing of blogger. i shall just upload the pics.. ANOTHER DAY. idiot.



updates!
(warning! disgusting pics below..)

okay. my toe doesnt hurt as much now & thank god the tui na today isnt dat bad. :)
sorrie abt e disgusting toe pics. but here's some more! HAHAS.

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okay. it looks serious. it just LOOKS serious. its nt luhs. just e joint part. but e aunty helped me to wrap e whole feet. like dumpling can!
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eeeww.. the toe revealed. it looks rotten & gross! :( & e blue black havent go off. the yellow brownish thingy is e medicine.


ohs, & i went to sch for today! freaking happy to see the familar faces around again! had lunch with my BFF clinque! totally miss them! :D after school went to cwp with big big tart! had sakae sushi! & watched definitely, maybe. :)

& e recent zilra chalet pics had been uploaded! :D

scroll down & enjoy~!

utmost love. thanks for e company & dat listening ear. :) heh. too bad we couldnt be in e same cds. aww.. :(

& im missing sec sch pals like yins & grace. we shall meet soon kay! :) i dint forget u guys!

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im happy again.



Tuesday, 22 April 2008

hows first day of school peeps?!
alright. was rotting the whole day at home today luhs! i rather go to sch. :(
& yea, i went to see the orthopaedics (also known as tei ta) in e morning.
seriously, i was so scared. i still rmb e first time i visted the orthopaedics when i broke my wrist. it hurted like shit. so i was like letting my imagination run wild on the way there.. wonder wad e doc will do to my BLACK-decayed-liked toe.. rawr.
the doc said it was a severe blood clot and i tore my ligament! darn.
was asked to lie down and theres electric current was going through my poor lil toe. the lady say is to 'hua yan' which i dunnoe wad. i think is to reduce the blood clot. & theres this heater beside. super hot can. i tot it would be veri pain..but it isnt dat bad.
just when i tot dats all.. the doc asked me to put out my leg.. apply some medicated oil or smth and started rubbing my toe.. even thou it was slow.. i SWEAR it was PAINFUL. the pain isnt just pain went he rub e area..its like when his hand leave e area, e area is still hurting.. like on-going.
BUT STILL BEARABLE.
then after the tormentor tui na, the lady applied this brownish black medicine on it and bandaged it.
felt weird walking with the bandaged toe. & its officially numb.
have to go back again tml.
i hope it wouldnt hurt as much pls. :(
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after e incident. it was black today
morning.
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my bandaged toe.
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&
mc just in case.


& thanks FY, brandon, sky, larry who listened and asked. thanks for the concern yo.
not forgetting dear who called upon seeing e post. :) loves.


god bless me.


Sunday, 20 April 2008

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WRETCHED.
had been feeling shitty this few days. especially in e night. sigh.
sometimes i just wante be alone..
sometimes i just wish i dint have any expectations.. so i wouldnt be disappointed at all.
things just aint going my way..
and its just sucky sucky sucky.


had been spending loads of time with venos this week.
a few days back we had venos dinner at tampiness mall open plaza. i had a great time. everyone just packed their food, gather tgt to eat, all dat games, camwhoring and ghost stories telling. :) it spell FUN. but e journey back home alone is just so terrible.

next was week zero jam and hop.
i was all excited and stuff. but it just turn out badly i felt.
met apple & FY for shopping. however, dint manage to shop. even thou apple bought a halter neck blouse. ended up eating 'taiwan xiao chi'. i was so hungry dat i had a bowl of mee sua and shared e fried chicken with them.
FA yee ping came along. then we went to bedok for dinner. had yong tau foo. i was super full luhs. afterwhich we cabbed to sch for jam & hop!

it supposed to be fun filled.
but.. i dunnoe.
its not dat my mood isnt there. i have e mood.i wanted to dance. but somehow it just aint right. sigh.
it just aint e same.


firstly, i couldnt find e right people to dance with. apple pulled me along.but i dunno e ppl there, so its a bit awkward. secondly, the songs werent dat nice at first. and thirdly, which was e worse reason of all.. irritating people. zzz. seriously. irritating to the max.
i was dancing and came guys who wante dance with me and keep tapping on my shoulder to face him & dance with him! i dint even wante face him! grr.. like blahs.. and it bloody hell happened twice. wad a night.

but after the whole thing, part of venos gathered ard and we cheered (hosamaliya) & even did our para sakura! dat did hype me up a bit. :)
but after dat.. things was back to normal. emo-ing in process.

had cheng ting opposite sch with venos before heading home.

saturday:

was e usual tradition. mass empires gathering at sentosa. met CY, jia jie, Beverly, jia ying at dobhy ghaut. met the rest of the late comers at harbour front. some of us went to had BK before going in.
it was at palawan beach. we bought b'day cake for FA hakim! and theres cake-smashing actions.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAKIm!

the guys were throwing people into the water. i dint wante be tek glam u noe. oops. so was practically 'on the run' the whole day. hiding outside 7 eleven. =x with another glam queen, maybelle.

then i decided to go back for some games. played soccer. and in less than 10mins. i was injured. good job janice. my leg just slammed hard onto sheng wei's leg! and my poor toes were crushed. :(

after washing up, we went to vivo. some had dinner there while e rest of us went to boat quay to support dom's gig at home club.

and again a series of unfortunate events happened.. stoopid taxi uncle dropped us at e wrg place.
then e entrance fee was too steep for me, xiu zhen and gareth. so we went to had bak ku teh instead. :x LOL.
after e gig we went to BK again to eat and stuff.

wasnt in good condition both physically and mentally. it was 12am. thank god he was there. he accompanied me home. thanks for everything. :) loves.

i declared 19th april 08 is a grumpy day. cos scandal xiuzhen, nelson and i are all grumpy on this day.

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will you come & sit beside me...quietly?


im sorry abt wad happened, nelson. do take care.
& thank you everyone who asked abt my toe. im going to see e doc tml. :)
lastly, lynette, thanks for helping me. :) was really tired of limping around. hahas.


oh, & i realised my blog is deprived of pics. shall upload pics soon kay. :)
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and i want to continue ranting...
which you can always ignore this part.

sometimes u can be an angel. but sometimes u got me so f**ked up.
i dunnoe. i wish u gt the hint. i need some air. you gt me really suffocated. i have my limits and i have reached it. everyone needs their own space. dont u need yours?
i just wish u will learn to be more independent. just a lil bit more.. no one can be with u at all time. if u dont feel like doing smth, it doesnt mean i dont. why is it dat i always have to stop doing smth i like just bcos of YOU. im sick and tired of it. to say it nasty, you are a burden to me. i understand friends should be by your side when u need them. i understand. i will & i did. but sometimes its just too much for me. & worse still.. i dunnoe how to converse it to u. im feeling so WRETCHED. save me.

& another issue.
after thinking it thru. i really find myself so silly. it was really redundant.
i just feel so inferior and stuff. keep pulling myself down..down to almost nothing. am i really dat worthless? i felt insecure and im losing my confidence fast.
but thinking it thru, does it really matters?

i found my answer.. nope. :) im going to be a happy girl again. and i promise myself i will not get upset over such trivial silly matter.
JANICE HUAY, dats not going to affect u ever again!

i will be happy again.


Monday, 14 April 2008

WOOHOO! im BACK from 6 days of camp!
FOW and FOC ended on a high note. it was a BLAST baybeehhh!!! :D

i really wante thank every single one of them from VENOS. from my FAs, Hakim & YeePing, my fellow venos GLs & e most important people, FRESHIES! :D u guys made my 1st GL experience a great and memorable one.

lets start from FOW.

day one:
woke up freaking early and met becca at 6.30am. her dad sent us to school. :) whee. acted as FAKE freshies with xiuzhen and rayna. omg. it was damn 'xin ku' but at e same time fun. got to know my first few freshies during ice breaking games. & when i was later revealed as a GL, they were kinda 'angry'. hahas. oops. anyway, my sub empire is VEGAN. alright, yea, it sounded like vegetarian. LOL. then we had flag making as well as out of school station games around tamp central. there goes day one.

day two:
help to welcome freshies in e morning with xiuzhen, ks and raazmy. :) really happy to see some of the freshies back again! woohoos. its always the second day that is FUN cos we had the... mass dance, TP song and hand sign song as well as some station games. cnt rmb which GL i danced with for demo. =x then GLs had to teach freshies. danced with wen da. :) as for hand signs, guessed freshies had a hard time memorising. but somehow i think yuan long did a good job teaching them. cos frankly i aint good at hand sign song..
i have to say VENOS freshies are really ZAI. they even had things planned out for performance night. GOOD JOB freshies. :D so while they are doing their thing, we did ours! it was random luhs. Jel taught us para sakura & we performed for them! damn FUN! hahas.. thats something for our beloved freshies. :)
as for station games, we stayed in school instead due to wet weather. im glad freshies are participating, nt forgetting some like charlton and jiaying who initated to lead. *i love freshies!*

day three:
carnival games! it was SQUIRT SQUIRT! :P water everywhere! it was SUPER FUN! still remember 1 year back, i was being sprayed at. this time i was the one spraying water at freshies! REVENGE! *evil grin* hehh. everything was fine and fun until i sensed something wrong. my period came unexpectedly. SHIT. everythings ruined. argghh.
after lunch it was hunt-gry. amos led the empire. he was one outstanding freshie. i think he was really humble & nice. and dats e reason why he was voted as our empire best freshie. :) last but not least, FINAL CLASH. seriously, personally i hated this game. (due to bad experience i guessed)but this time round, i think it was great. it wasnt as draggy as compared to my batch and during my batch, if u're hit by water bomb u're OUT. so the game ended kinda fast. & im proud to announce VENOS got 2nd! lalalas. super happy.
lastly, VENOS got 2nd again for overall as well as BEST SPIRITED award! the one & only award! :D

G-double-O-D J-O-B
GOOD JOB *2 claps* GOOD JOB *2 claps*

after FOW, e same old tradition, dinner tgt at CPF building. BUT some irritating security guard called the police and we moved to tamp stadium instead. had ljs and played games with our freshies! &decided to go to xiuzhen's place to stayover since i stayed so far. thanks nich & xiuzhen for helping me with my bag. :)

FOC day one:
supposed to have breakfast with bobo clan. but we were all too tired. so we went back to sleep. next thing i know, xiu zhen called me up & told me we overslept! we rushed and stuff. ended up forgetting my bubble tea which i had craved for for many many days! ohmyohmy..
as it was first come first serve, many freshies were alr there when we reached school. freaking early luhs.
again, was supposed to act as fake freshies, but xiuzhen, rayna and i backed out last min. leaving apple & caroli there. FOC is really a BIG group. taught them some cheers and response. SQUIRT SQUIRT! and i love the 'kuto' & 'bawu' cheer. SHOOSHOOSHOO.
e activites were repeated. going thru the same old stuff but its the PEOPLE who make the difference.
& i apologised for nt being hyped up dat day. was really feeling terrible cos of cramp. feeling real shitty. :( boohoos.

day two:
was feeling better & was all RAHRAH! even the weather was GOOD. all e fun in the sun. :) was being sabo-ed by dexter during mass dance. but i shall take it in pride and be honoured someone wants to dance with me. :) then at night it was performance night! woowhee. freshies from FOW came back! SUPER DUPER HAPPY! smile like nobody business luhs. & again, GLs learnt a new dance from raazmy to perform for the freshies. this time,nt only for our empire but everyone. :D oh ya, and RONG BIN from our empire got the title of DANCING KING! WOOHOOs. hes in my sub empire and i dint noe he could breakdance! damn cool! WOO! and not forgetting badd's & dom's BIRTHDAY!
had mass dance before & after jam and hop. danced with charlton and nelson. :)
was really anticipating jam & hop. but the songs & lightings killed my mood more or less. boos.
however, dancing partner, apple was GREAT. she really makes me go HIGH. love her loads. Jel & hakim can SHAKE yo. :p and spotted a few freshies who can dance & shake their bom bom. hees.
i still cnt wait to go CLUB! yesh,i havent club BEFORE. damn sad. :(

went to hunt for food after bathing with cy & nelson. almost all vending machines went out of food. :( had potato chips and wafer instead. grrr..

day three:
out of all 3 days, today was the most RAHRAH for my sub empire. they were GREAT. love them super loads. even the programmer praised them! woosh! & i had to praise amanda who led VEGAN during hunt-gry. and she was e first GIRL i saw to challenge the '5 bottle caps in one's mouth'! knowing how tak-glam it was, she still go on with it! 3 cheers for amanda yo. :D

this time we dint manage to get e most spirited award, but we got the 2nd place again. personally, im satisfied alr. :)

and..most of us teared..
some of the GLs are graduating.. wad i can say is we cnt bear to part. its their last chance to cheer tgt with us as an empire in FO.

mass danced with cy & hakim. after tat we took some photos tgt with e freshies before sending them out of e hall. had a quick debrief. & before heading off to CPF building, Venos cheered for one last time and danced e para sakura & raazmy's dance tgt.

reached CPF building real late. and by the time i reached tamp stadium, most of them went off alr. super sad. :(
took cab home with freshie sky and jel!

and lastly, FRESHIES, if u see this, please tag & add me ya. :)


i gonna miss every single one of u.
& even thou its only a few days, u guys made an impact in my life.


Sunday, 6 April 2008

time for some HAPPY moments!
Dinner & Dance pics! :D



and my fav pics with GREEKY SPECS! :D


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and i force superman to put this freaking UGLY but funny pic as his background on his hp.so he will smile whenever he uses e phone. :D

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DONT YOU DARE LAUGH OKIE!

im looking at YOU..



Saturday, 5 April 2008

its a suck suck SUCKEST day!
& i broke down TWICE.
GOOD JOB JANICE HUAY.
u're such a greedy ass!
i was dumb to believe u & fall deep into it.
i feel like slapping myself. & u too.


Friday, 4 April 2008

went to superman's chalet ytd at changi. wow wow.its BIG and its much nicer than those at pasir ris. but its quite secuded which makes it 'unreachable'. and e stoopid shutter bus timing make a hell out of me. overall it was quite fun bahs. even thou i was sleeping when i got too bored half way. =x
on tuesday met up with my beloved classmates! :D theres rach, winner, lucinda, kang cheng, steven, nich zheng, hua chi and desheng! AGAIN WITHOUT FAIL, we would always meet up to EAT,buffet especially! after dinner accompany my utmost love and her friend, jo to chit chat. :)
 
 
im upset dat u're actually doing it.
but i couldnt stop u which makes me feel useless as ur friend.
i dun even noe if i should do anything abt it.
cos e others seems fine with it. :(
anyway, dont break ur promises.
at least im glad u're honest with me.
get well soon. its ur life, ur own decision.
do wad makes u happy. :)
when u're happy, people ard u will.

to a friend:

i was greedy.
i was selfish.
i dint like to share limelight with others.
pls dont treat me so good
u may nt know but it hurts.
maybe i misunderstand u..
i bought it upon myself.
i dunnoe wad im doing.
i shall leave and stay far far away frm u.
avoidance may be the best thing for us and we shall go on with our OWN life.



LA BAMBINA

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JANICE HUAY
♥Im just an average girl next door
♥TP is my lovely second home
♥bluesuki2003@hotmail.com
♥Gemini
♥19
♥sports, dance, music, sleeping
♥white&turquoise
♥family&friends
♥animals
♥im NICE & its so in my name! :D

flash me a smile my friend
and i will flash u mine! :)

i wanne be the only hand you need to hold on to.
& you know u're the one who keeps me smiling with those dimples. :)

dancebabydance


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