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Wednesday, 28 November 2007 Tuesday, 27 November 2007 MID SEM TEST TIMETABLE IS O-U-T! all one hr paper.damn all papers at 9am. :( was out with gracechanchan, quek yins, jialong,wincent and weihong. watched FREDCLAUS. was reallie upset to see my yins broke down. STRESS STRESS GO AWAY! my yins is a capable girl! jia you! :D i will be there to support u on fridae! hees. same goes for my laopo,gracechanchan. was reallie shock when u and wei hong made such a decision. i noe i have no say..but i jus want u to be happy. and i noe how it feels..its jus like wad u sae;难受。 i wish u guys all the best alrite. if u need any listening ear, i will be more than happie to be there. :)     --------------------------------------- recently, i heard my fren told me how she like one person's character. i noe its jus a comment.but somehow i started soul searching myself.. i wonder if anyone in this planet will sae dat he/she likes my character.. i realised different people react and behave differently in front of different people. sometimes i wonder...should i be always NICE; making everyone likes me, satisfying everyone? or should i just be MYSELF? i dunnoe. sometimes being myself just makes people hate me..i dunnoe. and im one who takes hardly how people look at me and judge me... sometimes even me,myself thinks that im splastic. gosh. i sounded like i hate myself.. maybe i do now.. i find that im too serious and uptight. im nt one who can sit there being all relaxed and having fun.. especially when things are in a rush. and sometimes people hate me for being like dat..im nt like dat FUN and HAPPY girl that everybody likes... making people around me happie. spreading the happiness. I CANNOT. in fact it takes me some time to open up, and be that HAPPY and FUN girl. and im nt one who WILL or CAN satisfy ALL at one time. im one who will target..and if im nice to you, i will be VERY NICE to u.. im not one who will be NICE to everyone. imnot. now im hating NICE. damn its in my NAME. JANICE. call me J.A now. people is the same, we get judged by wad we do. Monday, 26 November 2007 WOOS.. my 100th post entry! :D thank you scandal grace phuaphua for helping me with my blogskin. finally a change. woosh.im back frm standard chartered pre-event! helping out to issue race entry pack. and my job? travel back & forth to take e correct size of shirts and bags to the runners. it was reallie tiring and i simply think dat its CHEAP LABOUR luhs. but.. it supposed to be a volunteering work.so NO GRUMBLING. :x i consoled myself by telling myself, got FREE adidas tees, breakfast lunch & dinner included and 20% adidas voucher! last but not least,$20 a day.  kissed. :) kah yuen, grace and jan. changed. :) johan.kah yuen, graceskipped sch on fri! got LOA. hees. but its worse than school can! got wake up at 6plus cause we had to report at suntec convention hall at 8.30am! however..we onli go in at 9 plus. -.- had briefing and tuna sandwich for breakfast. (it was so rush dat we had onli 5mins to eat!) standby at our station at 10plus. :) 11am the doors will open.  before work. our booths.we're e support counter crew. my counter crew was merlinda.  merlinda.i tot there will nt be alot of people cos its a fri and people SHOULD be working right? but im so WRONG. the big crowd just rush in when e doors were open. omg. and e stoopid system is so CROPPED UP! damn. so slow..... and people are getting impatient and e Qs are damn LONG.. oh man. we decided to use manual which is even faster luhs! we met all kinds of people.. some are understanding..some are unreasonable and so NOT understanding at all.. i mean its not our fault e system is damn slow or wad. and some just give us e stoopid face..-.- *slaps* some stoopid uncle are so uncooperative.. ask them to take out their i/c so difficult meh? still ask us " is it necessary? " -.- *slap slap* and some insisted on changing their shirt size. NO means NO. stop arguing! *diao looks* we are so busy dat we keep working all the way frm 11am to 4 plus then we can have our LUNCH! and our lunch was a rush one too.. onli 10mins. omg. when we finally SAW the end of the full marathon Q, we were so damn happie! and finally around 8 plus, we finished full marathon.. but half marathon are still crowded..so we had to help them.. the whole thing finally closed at 8pm! WOOHOOS. all of us were clapping and smiling. FINALLY.  FINALLY IT ENDED.the dinner was damn BAD. it smell SOUR. oh man. there goes our dinner. :(  on the way to dinner. off work!we Q-ed up for our pay and voucher, had briefing and we (grace,johan, kahyuen) went to have PROPER, NICE DINNER at PEPPERLUNCH! yay. just when i tot it was a happy ending... i found out i lost 10BUCKS! oh man! DAMN. :( damn sad. *screams* earned 20bucks,lost 10bucks. HEH. despite the 'busyness' i still manage to see chris, fangee and max! they joined half marathon. :) reached home around 11plus. and everything repeats the same for tml.. ------------------------------------------------------- i was late on 2nd day. =x 2nd day wasnt dat bad. they had 2 servers now and its damn fast! woohoos. i changed counter crew. took over gracephuaphua. (she is so hoping mad cos SOMEONE CAME! =x)  2nd day wasnt as busy. :D i even changed job with my counter crew. i became the counter crew instead. not dat tiring. hees. managed to have lunch and dinner at proper timing and wasnt as rush. we even manage to have break. hees.  kah yuen trying to POKE my dimple. -.- looking shagged.however, Q-ing for pay was long.. -.- and i decided nt to come on sunday. was too tired. :( went for dinner with kah yuen, ben chow, jo-an, sunny, ashley, maybelle and liyi at food republic. OMG.the food damn ex. had fishball noodles with extremely small serving for $4.20. -.- hees. saw q.many shuai ge! esp on e 2nd day. hahas. day one, grace's counter gt a Caucasian q.charming! and we were going gaga over him. HAHAS. =x i will miss those fun and those people. --------------------------------------------------- heh. after all this fun. its time to concentrate on studies. to do: -research and do up cds jap presentation -projects. -revision. (mid sem test coming!) -pom online quiz -revise acc. (teacher testing us again:( ) cannot wait for 2nd dec! standard chartered marathon! hees. theng sis will be there too! :D -------------------------------------------------- you're older than me and i expect you to be more mature and smarter. wadsmore you're trained to do dat job, not me.. -.- please act like your age. Sunday, 18 November 2007 wow.saturdae was a long day. woke up 5.45am and met alison at 6.30am at semb mrt. dropped dwn at bkt batok,met aubrey & took a bus dwn to ngee ann poly. i never go for e trial & briefing the other day..so i dint noe e route. i was kinda nervous thou.met the rest of the team at e sports gallery. wasnt feeling in tip top condition thou. dint have appetite (dint even finish my sauage mcmuffin) & my stomach was churning. :( went to change into our jersey. omg. no size left. was forced to wear L. -.- thank god theres safety pins. hees. then we had briefing at 8am, warm up and proceed to the starting line, 9am the race started. 3.2KM HERE WE GO.. i dunnoe hows e route like,so i dint noe wad to expect..and it kinda affects me cos i dunnoe how much more i have to go and worst still, i realised theres alot of SLOPES! i was totally drained after a few up slopes. its short but damn steep! here im moving my feet, but i feel as if i wasnt going anywhere..like running on e spot! i wasnt reallie happy with my position. wasnt in e front few batch. :( but i think my timing was better den before. :)
dats huiyi! shes cute rite?!
after the race.
alison and i. iguesseverythingsfine.oversensitive.
my L size jersey and the gift was frm qing xiu. one of my track mates. so sweet rite?! :D next was the prize presentation. woo. radhiya got third overall. :D congrats. dun see her so tiny..she can run damn fast. :) incredible girl she is.
DATS MINE...NOT! trying to claim her reward. xp
part of the group. bottom left is radhiya! :)
after bathing. :)
stoopid fang ee and i trying to act dumb. hahas.
outside alumini. wengs peeping! tsktsk. after lunch, we went off to marina square for movie. but there wasnt any nice movie to catch. so we went to shop around. luckily there was huiyi around. the guys went to carls jr to slack while huiyi & i continue our shopping spree. xp was in love with these tees frm zara! i wante get it!
on the bus on the way to lao pa sa.
our desserts. ---------------------------------------------------- ohs. and sunday was my grandmas birthday! :D  hahas,my grandma wasnt ready! LOL. dats me and bro. get to meet most of my relatives. totally miss my dad's 2nd bro dat family. im closer to them. :) love chatting with them.  i just LOVE her! even thou shes so much older than me,she feels like a sister to me!  my cousin's gf.  my cousin. had a big feast at the same venue as e previous year. :) we took pics too, but its with my aunt..so i dunnoe if i could get it back.:( still rmb the previous post abt my cousin is going to get married? he gave out e RED BOMB ytd! hahas.. its on 16th dec! hees. congrats. :) and i saw my this cousin.. its just so weird.. i still rmb we used to be so close..and now we dun even talk face to face.. when i saw her on sundae, we jus smile at each other dats all..-.- heh. dats bad.  my cute lil niece and nephew.:D 
life like dat. ------------------------------------------- WOOHOOS! rebecca called me todae and told me ALL OF US are in for OTC! YEA! :D Friday, 16 November 2007 went to HONG KONG CAFE for the first time. (cineleisure) omg. i like e furnishings. so cool. :) love the environment too. the food are kinda pricey..BUT it provides a wide variety of choices to choose from & the food was not bad. dun mind going there again. a great hangout place with frens i think. :D tried e yuan yang for e first time too! not bad! love it. hahas. & i think i saw JUSTIN ANG frm 98.7! hahas. random! xD ------------------------------------------------ went running todae again. tml is the race le.. and sadly, mrs RED came. DAMN. it always affect how i feel & eventually my results. wasnt reallie satisfied with my timing! damn sucky. :( heh.hope i will be in a GOOD FORM tml & hit a timing of 20mins.(max) ohman. got to wake up at 5 plus in the morning tml! thank you jiasheng,aaron & 2 other DB people who had accompanied me for the run. :) its ccn day today! dint reallie go around & have fun. anyway, helped matthew's booth. jiasheng & i each donated $1. i was to throw 8 darts and see what colour star u hit & win wad. i jus anyhow throw. and hit 4 'small prize' then e last one hit the one & only 'special prize'! so heng luhs. its a BIG box of CHOCOLATE! i gave it to rebecca & asked her to distribute to her TPRAWKS rockers. :D saw my twin sis SERENA! miss her like CRAZY! we had a great time catching up with each other.  time never seems to pull us apart. she accompanied me to city hall. went on to thiong bahru. my artist treating dinner! (Thai Express) some of the other models and their artists came along too! saw wen jing & pei en too! we just kept chatting from 7 plus to 10 plus until they're going to close shop! LOL. the food is NICE. like wen jing's black pepper soft shell crab with dongfen! xD YUMMY. -------------------------------------------------------------- Tuesday, 13 November 2007 i have finally cut my nails! short,neat and clean.:) feel so weird thou. not used to it. been so used to typed/sms with my nails. cut my RIGHT index finger while opening the damn can of LONGAN. -.- dats the result of IMPATIENT. now i cnt write properly. :( sigh. going jogging tml! woohoos. havent been running ever since i left track.:( joining NP race.so gotta start training yo. heh. my sports shoes are HUNGRY. they seems to be opening their mouth,saying," I WANT FOOD! FOOD!" :x hoping to get one new pair of shoes tml! :D i want LIGHT, DURABLE,COMFORTABLE and CHEAP ones! xD saw the long tags frm my darling yins & gave her a call. im so glad everythings fine btw us.:D dun worry luhs. u'll never be removed frm no.1! love ya and hope dat ur projects are going on smoothly and JIA YOU! hope to hear frm gracechanchan soon. im still holding on.pls hold on to me too my frens. afterall it takes 2 hands to clap. :D   rainbow just make me smile.:)  我们的缘份就到之为持了吗？ Sunday, 11 November 2007 WARNING. LONG BLOG ENTRY. LEAVE THIS BLOG IF U HAVE NO TIME FOR IT. THANKS. was feeling upset this morning. sigh. i guessed everyone feel the same way as i did.. feeling all alone and dat no one is there for you.. not even e ones u tot who will.. i think dianna was right. maybe no one in this world will be there for you like they always sae they will. and dat we always break promises we made earlier on which most of the time, on impulse..thinking this doesnt make much impact to the person.. i dunnoe.. i think its because i dint say it out.. thus no one knows.. and thus couldnt be there.. time jus drift people apart.. maybe im less important now.. maybe im forgotten.. dun wanne probe much into it anymore.. ------------------------------------------------------------------- met some idiotic people. dun meet me out saying u have smth to sae to me and then giving me excuses dat ur fren is there, u dun wante sae it.. wth. and dun meet me out and saying you have to leave earlier thus u're meeting ur frens.. hello! u asked me out! not e other way round! i sae fine. leave. i sae i can manage alone. and wad issit dat u sae i got character? then? wad do u expect me to do? cry like a 3 year old kid, whining and whining.. or go under my knees and beg u not to leave me.. or u just want me to hold u back?! im not like before. i have grown up. u may not like me like dat.. but i jus dont wante be dat childish girl i used to be! i've changed! and u're e cause of it! -------------------------------------------------------- took cab to FURAMA Hotel. and damn. got to the wrong FURAMA HOTEL! took another cab to the one at chinatown. i went into the room. omg. balloons. and loads of people. saw a few familar faces. :) but we jus smiled and i jus stood awkwardly in the middle of the room;totally unsure of wad to do. called my artist and went dwn to find her. she's dolling herself up with 2 of her other frens who were also taking part in e contest. went up soonafter. saw pei en. another girl whos taking part in such a contest as model for e 1st time. :) we chatted while waiting for our artist to come up. next. learnt catwalk. OMG. e pro model so FIERCE. >< and one by one we had to do trial with our male model. theres 6 male models. OMG! got 2 damn shuai! one is my model! hes mixed blood and guess how old is he?! only 13 years old!  hahas. i cropped away my picture bcos i look sucky. OMG! e other one is 20 plus i think. he veri veri shuai. like those japanese star! and he got e model bod and look! we tot hes a pro model..in fact its his first time too! HOT HOT. xp after practising abt 2 or 3 times, the models went to changed. around 7, we had to do e real thing! people were seated down and the MCs invited us out. :) damn nervous and we werent suppose to SMILE! then we went back to our seats and the contest started. 1hr 30mins. and i saw REBECCA! hahas. :D time past by real fast. times up. alot of people we shocked. cos my HAIR STYLE! its actually standing up. my artist used wired and twist my hair around e wire and spray loads of hair spray to make it stay! cool. and sprayed red and yellow hair spray. i represent the SUN. woohoos. :D  my outSTANDING hair. xD
had another round of catwalk. the after. :) was taking pics with rebecca! until..i heard ppl repeating my name! OMG! my first time winning lucky draw! (its a pair of cups anyway) hahas.   becca and i with e rose. :D   thanks alot gurl.anyway, had fun. loads of photo taking sessions.
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