Tuesday, 8 December 2009
why do i feel like things are falling apart again just as i was trying hard to piece it back..
sucha mess now.
it really hurts to see my loved ones shouting at each other.
it seems so hard to keep a family tgt.
esp when everyone of us start to have our own commitments outside.
but shouldnt we compromise each other?!
I wouldnt want to side any one..
but i couldnt sit by this time.
i hate it when parents mum like to use the word MONEY to tie us down!
its like we would like to earn our own money, live on our own and not be dependable on u if we could.
but its so hard to manage.. so meantime, yes, we still need your support.
however, that doesnt mean u can use it to push us around, and do as u like.
WE HAVE FEELINGS TOO.
i dread it when u like to use “he…, make me so heartpain alr, u dont be like him..u better do this do that”
just because he is like that doesnt mean i have to do it your way every time.
i know u are pinning all your hopes on me.
and i ve always been a good girl, trying to please u all the time, but it means forgoing my own rights..
forgoing what i really want to do! my happiness, my freedom..
i need it.
Its not that im trying to defiant.
but i just think i need to fight for my own freedom.
im not asking for too much. just reasonable late stay-outs and occasional stay-overs.
i find u e most unreasonable when u couldnt even allow me attend my friend’s wake till late! ._.
and for god sake, korkor is already 21. let him decide what he wants to do with his life.
he knows what he is doing.
we are old enough to think what is right and wrong.
we are old enough to think what we should do and what we shouldnt.
we are old enough to decide what we want to do. we want to live the kind of life we want to.
we just need u to guide us along, give us wise advices.
and not just NONONONONO to everything!
seriously, u need to listen and stop thinking u are right everytime!
trapa gnillaf ylimaf
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