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deep within me
maybe its love
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Monday, 23 February 2009 trying to work my arse off to distract myself from thinking about those stuff. apparently it dint work dat much uh. e cut is still so fresh. i tried my best to not even think about it. but e harder i tried, the more it dint work out. e slightest thing in life just reminds me of you. even e most disgusting creatures,cockroaches, underneath my blk. :/ like yes, wth. people say forgive and forget. wad if i cnt forgive? my friend told me love is just a game. every start of a relationship is e start of every game. it is played differently with different players each time. it comes with different rules and regulations. if u break the rules, u have to pay for e price. and its finally GAME OVER if u keep breaking e rules. true enough. i got some senses knocked into my head by some i would say, more "straightforward" friends which consoled me in a more "factual" way. they dont take sides and talked sense based on facts. it felt like they were telling me off. it really hurted a lot but it was damn true. it was hard for me trying to absorb wad they were saying. but i do know where they were coming from. i understand and i dont blame them. they just took a different approach in showing their concern. thanks guys anyway. :) to sum it all up, we are game over and why should i care about you? whats more im e one who let u go in e first place. okay, maybe i just felt cheated and i cnt take it lying down. but i have thot it over, nth is forever. times have changed, theres no such thing as who wait for who. and from this i realised, life goes on. you are enjoying time with ur new lover. why am i still standing here getting upset abt this whole thing and whats with all dat self pity?! NO MORE. i kept ur picture away into my drawer. and i told myself every mornin, forget the jerk. you lead ur life and i lead mine. our paths not to be crossed. yeah. sometimes i do feel the urge to click on your profile esp when e "da da da has changed his/her profile picture" appearing on facebook. but i stopped myself in fear of seeing what i dont want to see. but now, come to think of it again.. yes, why should i even care. its ur life and i shant probe into it. either am i interested. if u can put it down so swiftly, i believe i can too. separate ways.
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LA BAMBINA
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