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deep within me
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Wednesday, 29 October 2008 lost, frustrations, jealousy and selfishness are words dat describe me best now. firstly, im so lost in school today! when i heard my classmates talking abt wad lecture and wad notes, i dont know if i have this or that. im practically LOST. i just stoned there trying so hard to recall which is which. but..i just couldnt. i like im lagging behind just at e 2nd week of school! HOW?! i gonna pay attention man. :/ i feel fear as well. ohboy. slap me. next, im so bothered by this matter since a long time back. okayy. i feel partly jealous. you know like for example u feel that u deserve something better than this particular person, lets call it Z. but Z got a lot more than you does and you feel dat Z doesnt deserve it. the worst part is Z keeps coming up to you to tell you the things that happened to Z! Z is telling you all that you dont wanne hear! ohgosh. i rather not know seriously. cos it just BOTHERS ME. tsk. and im freaking frustrated over wad had happened but i couldnt do anything. either can i explain why i felt this way. you know how it feels?! GODDAMN. i realised im a SELFISH okayy, im coughing badly now. i dont know when i breathe in and out, my throat will get irritated and a lil itchy which urge me to cough. and it goes on and on. :( please go away! bad throat. nd i hate seeing myself in reflections! i realised my eyebags is super humongous and dark. :/ FUGLY UGLY JANLY. i need to get myself EYE MASKS!!! a few happy lil things that make me smile thou: finally bought my casio gold face watch! at $18! i saw on blogshops selling at $25 loh and i was so tempted to buy! thank god! LOL. HEES. and now i cnt stop looking at it. PRETTYAYE! :D ---------- darling tard was damn cute. for e first time he gave me a tiny surprise tat made me SMILE to myself. HAHAS. thank god its at home if nt ppl might think im crazy. LOL. He msged me: go close your laptop cover. me: why? for wad. (cos i usually dont) tard: just close it. me wandering: omg, will there be some ghostly image pop out when im in front of e lap top?! LOL. i swear dat was wad was going in my mind. HAHAS. but still went to do it. BUT went to ON MY LIGHTS first just in case! LOL. so i pulled down the cover.. and i saw a tiny tweeny bit of paper there. he took it from my desk de "post it" note LOH. it wrote: Qing Wen Loves Janice! OMG. HAHAS. :D super happy. thanks darling!
sometimes i hate wad i see. sometimes i hate wad i feel. sometimes i hate wad you wrote! but im keeping quiet.
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LA BAMBINA
♥Im just an average girl next door ♥TP is my lovely second home ♥bluesuki2003@hotmail.com ♥Gemini ♥19 ♥sports, dance, music, sleeping ♥white&turquoise ♥family&friends ♥animals ♥im NICE & its so in my name! :D flash me a smile my friend and i will flash u mine! :) i wanne be the only hand you need to hold on to. & you know u're the one who keeps me smiling with those dimples. :) dancebabydance leave a note
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