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Friday, 19 October 2007 im sorrie i neglected you, my bloggie for quite some time. i used to grumble to you almost every dae.. wasnt in e mood to blog i guessed. splurged alot this week when im nt working. hopefully my pay wld be able to fill back e money i've spent. :( wanted to blog abt my 'tot-it-will-be-purrfect' week b4 sch reopens.. but smth happened unexpectedly and it ruined my week.. i was already troubled. u cld sense it.. as usual,i will tell u about my troubles.. u nv fails to give me good suggestions and console me.. we sat dwn and chatted. i wasnt reallie sure if u're involved..u nv confess anyway.. i tot i was jus too sensitive. u listened and seems so cool.. however, it turned out to be true. u were involved. a msg frm u totally got me unprepared and its over.. i cldnt sleep whole night. its bothering me. i woke up when its all quiet,took out my lil. dusty diary and wrote dwn all my feelings in it. 我哭到累了，累到睡了。 我哭了好几夜，眼睛也重了，你又知道吗？ 从最亲密的朋友到最熟系的陌生人。 i tot for a very long time b4 deciding if i shld go or not.. a word frm you will determine my decision.. first you sounded so cold..next you 'persuaded'.. i turned up afterall. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- we dint meet btw days after this happened. i went out,i had fun..but nv a minute i stopped thinking abt this.. damn. its SO bothering me. i tot i cld be carefree enough.. i tot i cld enjoy myself. but i nv tot i wld be so affected. so..affected.. i tried to hold back my tears..its so hard. dianna noticed smth was wrg with me.. i dunnoe why but whenever im upset and im alrdy on e verge of crying..if someone just simply ask me if im fine or wad..my tear will just roll dwn by itself.. but i managed to hold it back..i used up alot of energy..im so tired.. but i cnt show it.. i wanted so much to hide in a corner jus to cry.. :( i was unhappie.. it make it worse when u're hearing sad songs and even worse..singing it. thank goodness everything was better after some time.. the first hour was unbearable.. seriously. anyway, i dunnoe wad will happen btw us..but how i wish i nv tell u abt those things dat night..and wished dat things were like b4.. :( --------------------------------------------------------------------------- wante sae thank you to Dianna. thou u dint do anything, a caring msg frm you totally warm my hart. thanks alot gal. :) i noe you are there. and not forgetting my lovely BABE WINNER TAY! :D HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAE! freedom is another step nearer to u. enjoy urself babe. oh ya,another birthdae gal, VALARIE PEI! :D HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! finally its ur turn hurrs. :) hees. im so sorrie i dint turn up for e celebration at pings hse ytd. too late luhs, cnt attend. you noe my mum luhs hurrs.. :( anyway, hopeu enjoyed urself! :) loves. the nonchalant you. |
LA BAMBINA
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